i am still SO TIRED!!!

[chrysalis]

and depressed off and on...today i feel like i just despise how i look.....and i'm crying and just feel downright sad and tired. i'm worthless today as far as doing anything. i'm 17 weeks now...but i am thinking i'm just not satisfied w/ my relationship w/ fiance so that is what is dragging me down...especially as i am pg.

part of me wants to just be a single mama again and move on... i think i'm going to go out and get some fast food. i feel so down i just want to stuff myself. how come nobody talks about PND (pre natal depression?). i surely get it. then again, i suffer from depression and fatigue when i'm not pg. it is just my life...

i am feeling lonely. feeling discouraged... feeling...i am not sure what i'm feeling but i don't like it. i am reaching out cuz i just feel so strange.

[mothragirl]

what vitamins are you taking? you might want to talk to your MW about it. if i don't take my iron and b vitamins i get really emotional and tired. same if i eat too much sugar.

[GinaRae]

I've been looking for your posts for a couple of days. I am worried about you! Have a Quarter Pounder for me too, k?

Have you talked to your caregiver about your depression? You're going through some not-so-great things and that's going to bring you down more. Perhaps you should try something that will help?? I don't know what would work best for you.

Keep us posted! And you have support in whatever way you need to go. I think you know my views on which way to go, but I am not you. Good luck, hon! I'll be thinking about you.

[MandarijnOrange]

I feel this way today as well. I seem to have one good day where I have lots of energy and I try to make the most of it. The good day is usually followed by three bad days where I just feel exhausted.

Everything is great with my DH and I have nothing really to make me feel down, but I really feel 'out of it'. My head is foggy and I have a hard time concentrating. I popped a magnesium supplement because they usually help me when I feel this way. My prenatal only has 44% of RDA so I think the extra boost is good.

Looking forward to a good day again...

[sandiegokristi]

I just wanted to send you all the hugs I could.

[chrysalis]

thank you i just love you mamas here. i had a double quarter pounder w/ cheese, a large fries plus meghan's small happy meal fries. and i'm real bad...i am having a very large mr. pibb. i know i know.... i drank a lot of espresso when pg w/ megh so i guess i think i'll be fine w/ this one too...i am not drinking espresso but i also don't agree that its bad.

i think part of this is past programming...and the fact that i get antsy i think after a while somewhere...i have moved a LOT in my life. as a child and as an adult. i've had too many rela's w/ men (in my life i mean...not NOW) and i'm just tired.

i wish i'd just stayed in oregon and never left. not that tom doesn't have his fine points...he does at times shine. maybe i'm not giving him enough of a chance. maybe i'm not sitting and talking w/ him enough. maybe i'm neglecting the lover side of our relationship. being the AP mama that i am, and having my mom in oregon, i don't leave megh much. i don't have any AP mama friends nearby...so it is hard on me.

anyway...now i'm stuffed and happy. happier. gotta love the evil mcdonalds. megh and i watched a program on national geographic channel today and saw the hyenas attack a baby zebra and it was so awful we both decided we are not eating meat anymore. and what do i do later, i drive us to mc d's. sigh... i can be sooo lazy.

did i mention this is the first time i have NOT gone to one of tom's demo derbies??? (he runs heavy class) last year i went to like 19 of them supporting him...for hours on end, many of them sweating my ass off from the summer heat here in MN...THIS year, i'm SO not into it. guess that is part of the relationshiop not being new anymore and me not being a co. (co dependent). i'm honoring what i need tonight and it ain't watching crashing cars in some white trash sport. sorry but that is wht it is to me. don't mean to offend anyone. :

i know just what you mean mandarin about one day of energy (ooo its now thundering and raining out...was so sunny and HOT and muggy today here...i wonder if the derby will be rained out too...) and then lots to follow of little or none. what is nice about being pg is i can use that for an excuse where when i'm not, no one really empathizes w/ me much except other depression sufferers who understand.

i wonder if i CAN take my B-complex? i dno't have an iron supplement but i have chlorphyll. 1 Tbsp a day i was taking...not lately though. maybe i should go take some of that. how much B complex can i take? yes, i take my prenatals. i take NOW brand. sigh...:

[chrysalis]

gina you are so sweet. that is really sweet that you've been looking for me, thinking about me... i should talk to my midwife more about how i feel. i talked w/ her a little bit yesterday about it...she is so empathetic i just love her...: she said call her anytime i need to talk. wow. pretty cool midwife eh? she is like a mama. she is about 50.
lis

Originally Posted by GinaRae

I've been looking for your posts for a couple of days. I am worried about you! Have a Quarter Pounder for me too, k?

Have you talked to your caregiver about your depression? You're going through some not-so-great things and that's going to bring you down more. Perhaps you should try something that will help?? I don't know what would work best for you.

Keep us posted! And you have support in whatever way you need to go. I think you know my views on which way to go, but I am not you. Good luck, hon! I'll be thinking about you.

[chrysalis]

how much B complex can i take? do any of you know? here is what i have:

NOW brand, B-50 caps...

per capsule (says to take one daily w/ meals):

thiamine (B1): 50 mg
riboflavin (B2) 50 mg
niacin 50 mg
B-6 50 mg
folate (folic acid) 400 mcg (my prenatal has 800)
B-12 50 mg
biotin 50 mg
panthothenic acid 50 mg

paba 50 mg
choline 50 mg
inositol 50 mg

thank you mamas!

Originally Posted by mothragirl

what vitamins are you taking? you might want to talk to your MW about it. if i don't take my iron and b vitamins i get really emotional and tired. same if i eat too much sugar.

[scheelimama]

I've really been struggling this week with feeling down. I understand. It's so hard to get motivated to do anything. I have a good friend (an MDC mama) whose mw put her on Zoloft at 6 months of pregnancy for prenatal depression like you described. She stayed on it for quite awhile after the baby was born. She said it was a lifesaver. If I can't get my act together before my next appt. (in a week and a half) I might tell my mw how I've been feeling, but I have a really hard time admitting when I'm depressed, yk. I was doing so well until this past week (meaning since dh deployed until now). Anyway, just thought I'd provide some sympathy if nothing else.