same crap, different day.

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im now 40w 2d and getting really emotional. ive never gone into labor on my own and am scared my body just doesnt know what to do, ya know? at 42 weeks i was only 1 cm with both my other babes...1 of which was fully engaged and had been for weeks!
im also having some trouble getting past my last birth, which im finally talking about a bit and its helped a lot. although, its not ME that scares me, its my mw....my birth was horrible due to the midwives that were in charge and im having trust issues this time, i suppose.
my little bugger has been pretty chill today, which is a nice change.

made an appointment for acupuncture for today...had to conquer my phobia of needles to do so. of course she calls me to say she needs a note from my doc saying its ok to induce me. so, i call my mw and she wont fax a note~ besides the fact she doesnt apporve of any type of unduction unless medically necc., she hasnt checked my cervix yet (which she wouldve had she not screwed up scheduling for my 40w appt

: ). ggrrrr... im so feaking cranky!!!