OP, I'm not glad you were "taken down a notch" as you put it but sometimes I feel isolated by so many positive birth stories I read about how joyous and ecstatic labor can be. I did everything possible to prepare for my HBAC. I got the mw, the doula, read all the grassroots childbirth books, came up with a birthing plan, and so forth, all to no avail. I had a horrendous 24 hr labor with no relief, ecstasy, or spiritual awakening which ended with another c/s. That was 7 mos. ago and I am still processing it. I'm not depressed per se but often times on boards like this I don't know where I fit in. I feel like a failure when so many women describe their beautiful birthing experiences like the baby just fell out and they worked through the pain like a lovely creative visualization. It just wasn't like that for me, as much as I wanted it to be and sometimes reading those stories makes me feel inferior.
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7/3/07 at 12:07am