One Year Ago Today....

[thomlynn]

Was my due date. Her birthday is tomorrow and I'm sitting here crying STILL grieving my birth.

I know some of you are birth experts so I want to know how common is it for them to pass the meconium while they are still inside. It happened and I think that's part of the reason we were rushed. My midwife did a wonderful job of kicking the NICU nurse out of the room b/c it wasn't really really bad but it was bad enough that when my labor started to stall we couldn't wait around for things to pick back up again and we had to go to the hospital.

I'm scared to death it'll happen again and I'll be a failure yet again. No one here understand (except dh) why I have a healthy and beautiful baby and I'm still upset about what happened.

What are my chances of it happening again?? Is there anything I can do different next time??

I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be even more depressing.

[pinksprklybarefoot]

I think that different care providers react differently to meconium. A woman that I know gave birth a few months before I did, and when her water broke they found meconium in it. She was in labor for about 30 hours (at the hospital) before they did a c/s. She did not feel that anyone rushed her.

[Lady Lilya]

The problem with meconium in the water is that it could indicate one of 2 things:
1. the baby's digestive system is mature enough for him to pass meconium into the water.....not a problem
2. the baby is in distress of some kind.
They just don't know which.