Heyla!
I'm meeting with my care provider in a few weeks and will discuss this with her, but since it's giving me nightmares I'm hoping someone here can provide me with some info as well!
I was given an episiotomy prior to my care provider using a vacuum to assist in my dd's birth. I had been pushing for ~4 hours (this was my first VBAC birth) and although dd's head had been visible for some time she wasn't moving down further. It was decided that her head was stuck on the pubic bone and after trying all sorts of positions (the ones I remember were supported squat, dangle, squat with squat bar, hands and knees, side lying, semi reclined, and even semi recline with my feet up on the squat bar but there were probably others!) and a variety of "hip squeeze/pelvic press" attempts, and oil/compresses on the tissue, my care provider asked to do an episiotomy.
She told me I was already tearing a little and although it would be my choice, she thought the episiotomy would be necessary. I was in no real condition to think about it really (med free birth, pushing for 4 hours, so my brain was elsewhere) but I did know she was very conservative in terms of "cutting" and very natural birth supportive (trained on the Farm, had one of her own births there) and decided that if she felt it was necessary then maybe it was.
Eagle eyed hindsight suggests otherwise...she cut a very small episiotomy (DH was watching) and then used the vacuum to help direct dd's head under the bone. DD's head was delivered with the next push but then shoulder dystocia occured. DD was stuck for 4 minutes as everyone got very focused/intense. I was flipped a la the gaskin manuever and then flipped back, and eventually dd made it out. She was/is fine but I have a 4th degree tear and all that entails.
I'm sure the episiotomy contributed to the severity of the tear but I'm certainly not blaming her for the tear! Without the SD we'd be talking about 3-4 stitches, and obviously SD is pretty unpredictable. We had tried all sorts of non-surgical interventions before she mentioned the episiotomy.
So, my question... (and I will ask her at our meeting) I'm trying to figure out why an episiotomy could have appeared "necessary" at the time? As I said I've been having nightmares replaying that cut over and over and over and hope to find some "peace through detailed info", if that makes sense!
I've spoken with DH and my doula and although my care provider discussed the episiotomy with me she did not discuss the use of the vacuum as an option (I didn't even realize she was using a vacuum I was so far out of it!). Would you generally cut an episiotomy if you planned on using the vacuum? I'm wondering if perhaps she "knew" she was going to need the vacuum to shift dd off the pubic bone and so cut the episiotomy?
Or, if I was already tearing would an episiotomy seem logical to direct the tear?
Since she is so hands off and was so supportive of non-surgical intervention (she was suggesting many of the positions we tried, and instructed the nurses how to do an effective pelvic press) it seems unlikely that she suddenly decided after 4 hours that "what the heck, let's bring on the scissors!". But I'm trying to figure out what she may have been thinking at the time...
thanks everyone...I really appreciate it!
I'm meeting with my care provider in a few weeks and will discuss this with her, but since it's giving me nightmares I'm hoping someone here can provide me with some info as well!
I was given an episiotomy prior to my care provider using a vacuum to assist in my dd's birth. I had been pushing for ~4 hours (this was my first VBAC birth) and although dd's head had been visible for some time she wasn't moving down further. It was decided that her head was stuck on the pubic bone and after trying all sorts of positions (the ones I remember were supported squat, dangle, squat with squat bar, hands and knees, side lying, semi reclined, and even semi recline with my feet up on the squat bar but there were probably others!) and a variety of "hip squeeze/pelvic press" attempts, and oil/compresses on the tissue, my care provider asked to do an episiotomy.
She told me I was already tearing a little and although it would be my choice, she thought the episiotomy would be necessary. I was in no real condition to think about it really (med free birth, pushing for 4 hours, so my brain was elsewhere) but I did know she was very conservative in terms of "cutting" and very natural birth supportive (trained on the Farm, had one of her own births there) and decided that if she felt it was necessary then maybe it was.
Eagle eyed hindsight suggests otherwise...she cut a very small episiotomy (DH was watching) and then used the vacuum to help direct dd's head under the bone. DD's head was delivered with the next push but then shoulder dystocia occured. DD was stuck for 4 minutes as everyone got very focused/intense. I was flipped a la the gaskin manuever and then flipped back, and eventually dd made it out. She was/is fine but I have a 4th degree tear and all that entails.
I'm sure the episiotomy contributed to the severity of the tear but I'm certainly not blaming her for the tear! Without the SD we'd be talking about 3-4 stitches, and obviously SD is pretty unpredictable. We had tried all sorts of non-surgical interventions before she mentioned the episiotomy.
So, my question... (and I will ask her at our meeting) I'm trying to figure out why an episiotomy could have appeared "necessary" at the time? As I said I've been having nightmares replaying that cut over and over and over and hope to find some "peace through detailed info", if that makes sense!
I've spoken with DH and my doula and although my care provider discussed the episiotomy with me she did not discuss the use of the vacuum as an option (I didn't even realize she was using a vacuum I was so far out of it!). Would you generally cut an episiotomy if you planned on using the vacuum? I'm wondering if perhaps she "knew" she was going to need the vacuum to shift dd off the pubic bone and so cut the episiotomy?
Or, if I was already tearing would an episiotomy seem logical to direct the tear?
Since she is so hands off and was so supportive of non-surgical intervention (she was suggesting many of the positions we tried, and instructed the nurses how to do an effective pelvic press) it seems unlikely that she suddenly decided after 4 hours that "what the heck, let's bring on the scissors!". But I'm trying to figure out what she may have been thinking at the time...
thanks everyone...I really appreciate it!








). In a particularly lucid moment, I asked if he'd do the vacuum without an episiotomy and he said "No." I opted not to have the vacuum.