I hate being mean

[eilonwy]

I've just been so nasty lately, and so unhappy. : I really want to yell and hurt people and cry all the time. My flax seed oil hasn't arrived yet, and hopefully that will help, but right now I'm so awful that I don't want to be around myself, let alone anyone else... :

[Dea]

I know that feeling. It really sucks because you know you're not a mean person, and yet it's festering inside of you and you feel like you're going to explode.
I felt like that when I was on all of the fertility meds and my poor husband suffered so.
I hope you feel better soon! I hope you have a loving someone that understands that you're not really you and you can't help it.

[nolonger]

Flax seed oil helps?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

WOO-HOO! I'm off to take some now!!!: :

I've had the meanies like you wouldn't believe. My best male friend/soulmate has born the brunt of it and I just can't seem to stop hurting him. I feel like a nasty little boy who likes to tear the wings off of flies.

[justmama]

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[lovethyspirit]

*hugs* It will get better hon. I was a real beech in the first 4 months of my pregnancy...it's just hormones. Good luck with the flax seed!

[glowfaeriejosie]

me too, my 13 1/2 month old dd and my 13 yr old sd have just been irritating me to death lately! (especially when dd won't let go after nusing to sleep!)
and my hubby has been mr. meanie too, so i've been up and down.

[flapjack]

Me too. I haven't let my inner bitch out to play, but it's been pretty hard work keeping her safely chained up inside my dungeon of common sense. DH really deserves it too

[widdlelou]

Okay so at least I'm not alone. I've been just aweful and the worst part is I know I'm totally irrational but its like I'm a 2 year old and can't help it and as soon as its over I like reach a point of clarity and am just so upset I let myself get so crazy. I mean, my poor husband. He tried to help me out iwththe kitchen because I swear jsut the site of it makes me want to puke, so he is cleaning it up and all I can think of is it should have been done yesterday and then he didn't turn on the dishwasher just filled it up and I got soooo angry about it. Now the poor kid is being called every 5 min from work about something broken and the world can't live without whatever it is and here I am crying over the fact that the dishes are not turned on. Ugggg.

I'm taking fish oil some, but some days can't choke down the pill, but is that supposed to help like flax seed???

[azyre]

I;m a bit like that too. Long suffering thru PMS SO is great at laughing me off! Poor Audrey accepts my apologies with grace!

[eilonwy]

Yeah, flax seed oil definately helps. Iron too. Mine came today, though, and it'll be a few days before I'm up to speed (though I'll probably feel better than I have in the morning ). I've been angry with my kids, and the boy especially doesn't deserve it. : He's going to be talking about this in therapy, I'm sure. On the other hand, we accidentally let the cat out of the bag today (I was so tired that I slipped) and Bean was SO excited to hear that we're going to have another baby. Mike said, "Yeah, another baby is growing in mommy's tummy," and Bean said, "In her uterus, you mean. The uterus is right here!" and he stuck his finger right into my huge flap o' fat. He's already started talking to the baby and refers to it as "her." : "Hi! I'm your brother!!" He's totally stoked.