Well, MC avoided me like the plague these past few days, so I called him tonight (many, many times until I reached him). My instinct told me that he had a change of heart about dating me. (Ms GB has the most accurate instinct around). Anyway, he said it felt weird having me at his place a few weekends ago, and feels like he has "things to do" to move on w/his life now that he is separated and divorcing. He wanted to still talk on the phone, etc and not lose my friendship. I, of course, with dignity in hand, told him that I wasn't into being his phone friend...that it wasn't enough for me, and that I wasn't going to be strung along until he decided he was ready to move on. I told him that, if I was him, I wouldn't throw away someone who made him happy, feel good, laugh, was supportive, etc. He didn't want to end it, but didn't want to continue it, either (other than on the phone). So, I said..."I guess that's that. I'm going to hang up now. Bye." Of course, I'm in tears, but I'm giving myself a day or two then I am moving on 100%. That is, unless he calls with a change of heart in that time frame.
Anticipating this result, I went on Match.com and set up a date for Saturday night already! I hope I like the new guy "Bob", b/c I really enjoyed having someone in my life again, and really want a good relationship. I felt so much more alive and sexy, and loved the increased sex drive!
On the ttc front, I am fairly certain that AF will visit tomorrow. I've had very light spotting today, with cramps this a.m.. Took an HPT a little while ago, which was negative. I am SO ready for my hormones to stabilize so that my mood improves. Of course, this "thing" with MC hasn't helped my mood one bit these past 4 days. And people always wonder why I'm not married. I swear, it's not me. I'm not a commitment phobe or anything. It's THEM.