*Pregnant after a loss (PAL) July thread* - Page 2

[carmel30]

It's torturous isn't it? I keep prodding my boobs and rating their soreness on a scale of 1 to 10. I have discovered if I run down the stairs at great pace they hurt a bit more which gives me some comfort so at this rate I should soon be a size 0. And, yes, I admit it, I'm still temping (throughout the day!)
Aaaaaarrrrrgggghhhhhhhhh! :
I actually have four beautiful children and feel very blessed in the light of what's going on now. I've had 5 miscarriages at various stages and have now been diagnosed with a blood clotting condition. However, I've realised I'm waiting for bad things to happen. THIS HAS TO CHANGE! Now, I am going to wait for good things to happen. Come on ladies - let's place our trust in God and expect good things.............and if things turn out otherwise, He'll give us the strength to deal with that too.

[a-sorta-fairytale]

I too find myself pooking my breasts throughout the day to see if they are still sore

I feel pretty cruddy this am (a bit of nausea) which makes me incredibly happy.
I got my second hcg and prog blood draw this am. Have to wait 5 hours for the results...

With dd i was so calm and happy and naive. This time i am a wreck. This baby was so hard won, so long waited for.

I am actually going to get at least one u/s.

I feel like i need these little "milestones"

Good #'s
more good#'s
heartbeat
movement
then maybe just maybe at 13 weeks i can breathe

I just keep telling myself that emansmom and i (we know each other IRL) will get big together and have healthy babies around the same time. And everything will be lovely

[Eman'smom]

Originally Posted by a-sorta-fairytale

I just keep telling myself that emansmom and i (we know each other IRL) will get big together and have healthy babies around the same time. And everything will be lovely

Oh I want that too


Happy positive thoughts for all

[jillybeans]

Is it bad I'm considering stopping my b6 just so I can feel the m/s?

[a-sorta-fairytale]

So the RE called and while my hcg doubled my prog dropped a point
So i will start prog tonight and everything WILL be okay. And i will get a u/s next week and it will look great. And the next u/s will show a heartbeat. ETC with everything going lovely

So send all your stickybaby lovely happiness for ASF vibes

[jillybeans]

Good attitude! I hear you on the progesterone. I'm getting my second draw today. I have such horrible issues with it! It was only 14.6 on monday.

Lots of sticky baby vibes fairytale.

[sophiemalone]

I am the same way about symptoms. Some days I feel the heartburn, the sore nipples, peeing a lot and some days I just don't. It's easy to get wrapped up in worry on those days and just don't want to go there.

[gretasmommy]

Cautiously, very cautiously popping in to say hello.

I have been lurking here for a bit, afraid to join another DDC yet. Perhaps the PALS thread is okay. We're all in a similar situation . . . won't be as awful to leave if i must . . won't scare the others. . .. THese are the thoughts that run around my head, along with many others!

I ahve had 2 losses this past year, and was just diagnosed witha clotting disorder in June. A week later I got a BFP, unbelievable since we weren't temping/charting/really trying. But here I am, thrilled and terrified, in equal measure.

With the diagnosis of my clotting issue, I began baby aspirin daily and an Rx folate/B6/B12/zinc supplement. A week later I added the daily heparin injections once we discovered the pregnancy, as well as nightly prometrium. I am doing everything I can to help this baby make it. And I am so excited to watch as closely as I can each stage - I am doing weekly HCG's until we see the heartbeat (did you notice the positive thinking there? thanks, I am really trying.), and weekly u/s's until the second trimester. I know it sounds like a lot,and I cannot change what will happen, but I find a great deal of comfort in knowing that for now things are going well. This is giving me some peace (though most every day I spend the majority of the day terrified to go to the bathroom, worried by every little twinge in my belly . . . .). I walk around over-analyzing each twinge/cramp, the soreness of my boobs (has anyone noticed me poking at them throughout the day at the office? I hope not.), my level of fatigue . . . wishing for enough time to pass so that I can enjoy this. A little.

Hello to everyone. I really, really hope to spend the next nine months with you all.

[a-sorta-fairytale]

Originally Posted by gretasmommy

Cautiously, very cautiously popping in to say hello.

I have been lurking here for a bit, afraid to join another DDC yet. Perhaps the PALS thread is okay. We're all in a similar situation . . . won't be as awful to leave if i must . . won't scare the others. . .. THese are the thoughts that run around my head, along with many others!

I ahve had 2 losses this past year, and was just diagnosed witha clotting disorder in June. A week later I got a BFP, unbelievable since we weren't temping/charting/really trying. But here I am, thrilled and terrified, in equal measure.

With the diagnosis of my clotting issue, I began baby aspirin daily and an Rx folate/B6/B12/zinc supplement. A week later I added the daily heparin injections once we discovered the pregnancy, as well as nightly prometrium. I am doing everything I can to help this baby make it. And I am so excited to watch as closely as I can each stage - I am doing weekly HCG's until we see the heartbeat (did you notice the positive thinking there? thanks, I am really trying.), and weekly u/s's until the second trimester. I know it sounds like a lot,and I cannot change what will happen, but I find a great deal of comfort in knowing that for now things are going well. This is giving me some peace (though most every day I spend the majority of the day terrified to go to the bathroom, worried by every little twinge in my belly . . . .). I walk around over-analyzing each twinge/cramp, the soreness of my boobs (has anyone noticed me poking at them throughout the day at the office? I hope not.), my level of fatigue . . . wishing for enough time to pass so that I can enjoy this. A little.

Hello to everyone. I really, really hope to spend the next nine months with you all.

Andrea so glad to see you here

[surromommy2be]

Originally Posted by jillybeans

There is a pregnancy after a loss thread in the loss forum, but I can't hang out there because most of the moms are due around the same time Riley was. Are there any moms here that are pregnant after a loss or two?

We lost dd's twin in march of 05, then had a chemical in January this year. We were told we'd lose the baby we got pregnant with in March right away, but we didn't. I did end up losing Riley, but for different reasons. So I've had three losses total, out of three pregnancies(not counting this one) and one living child. I'm really hoping that this one will be ok. We have infertility issues on top of the miscarriages, so it's that much of a struggle to have a baby.

I thought it would be nice to talk out some of the fears we all have, especially this trimester.

Hey I'm right there with you I lost DS twin at 6weeks 4 days thank god Christopher stuck but It was still hard now I just found out i'm prego and had a light line on the test so I'm freaking out already

[Charmie981]

Freaking out a bit

Hi, Jillybeans! I remember you from my brief stint in Due in November. I'm sorry to see that you're not still there :.

I haven't read the whole thread, but like some others, I feel like maybe this thread would be okay to join, although I'm not 100% sure I'm going to stay "due in March."

I tested + yesterday morning and went to see my doctors NP very quickly afterwards. The urine test they did was negative, so they sent me for a beta, which came back a whopping 13. That totally freaked me out, until I realized I was only 9-13 DPO. 13 could be very normal for only 9DPO, right? She also checked my progesterone and ordered all of the tests for clotting disorders. I have an appointment with him on Monday to talk about results. I'm a little freaked out about the clotting disorder thing, as it makes for a higher risk pregnancy. Being a midwife, I don't really want a high risk pregnancy, but at this point I'm taking what I can get, ya know . Anyway, she started me on prometrium 200mg 2x/day until I see him on Monday and we know the results of the progesterone test as well as some of the others.

I don't even know why I took that test yesterday...I just did it. I certainly didn't expect it to be positive and I'm SHOCKED it was + with a beta of only 13. So here I am, trying not to dwell on how "bad" 13 is and how medicalized my pregnancy and birth might end up being. I have another beta tomorrow and the results will be in when I talk to him on Monday. So I'm just trying to make it till Monday. The good news is there has been NO spotting or cramping, so I remind myself of that about every 10 seconds, too.

[jillybeans]

: for you charlotte!

[jillybeans]

How is everyone doing?

I'm really wishing I was one of that 70% that got m/s. I have waves here and there of nausea, but I'm basically feeling fine. Tired of course. It just seems so reassuring, and I'm happiest, when I'm feeling one of those waves. Only 13 more days until we can see a beautiful little heartbeat.

[Charmie981]

I saw the doctor on Monday and my numbers had doubled appropriately, so I have a sonogram on August 1, hoping to see a little sac. I'm also hoping maybe we'll see a heartbeat at that time, because I would feel SO MUCH BETTER after that.

I bought a three pack of tests and took one every other morning since Saturday. Today was the last day and it's much darker than the first. Real scientific, I know .

I wish I had more classic pregnancy symptoms. I mean, there are definitely weird things afoot (like all the sex dreams : and the food aversions), but I think I'd feel better if I was throwing up once a day at this point, though I've NEVER been one to throw up in pregnancy, so that's asking a lot. I am super tired all the time, and not getting anything done, but I'm attributing that to the progesterone.

So there's my update. How is everyone else doing/feeling??

[1Plus2]

Jumping in here too. I'm pg for the fist time since my m/c 2 years ago. I m/c at 12-weeks although the ultrasound showed the baby had died a little past 8-weeks (we saw a strong hb at 8-weeks so it was only a day or two after that). It was so heartbreaking to lose my sweet baby.

I'm trying my best to only think positively but it can be so hard sometimes. I need to realize that all of this is totally in God's hands and to just enjoy it.

[alisaparrent]

1Plus2 lots of sticky baby vibes your way and to everyone else! It's so nice to be able to come here and know I'm not going out of my mind with worry. It's just so hard not to.

I'm thinking about going to have my blood work done early just to give me a little reassurance. But, part of me doesn't want to know. I'm sooooo afraid it will be bad news, anyone else have that feeling before you got it done?

My son is my inspiration and hope, since I know it's possible. He makes me smile when I watch him and dream about this new little one. Anyone else have "a feeling" about the sex? I just know it's a boy. And I actually would love to have a girl. I would be thrilled for another boy too, but there's something about little girls that are soo fun, especially all the clothes! I've had a feeling from almost day one that it was a boy......so weird. I had the same feelings with my son and was so confident that I told the US technician I already knew what it was.....he laughed but once we all saw his little turtle, it was confirmed. With my last MC I felt very strongly about it being a girl, so it always makes me sad to think that it could have been my little girl~ I guess she always will be!

Have a great day~ It's sunny here!!! I need to venture outside, but laying in my bed feels sooo good.

[salt_phoenix]

Just had my first u/s today...

my bean officially has a heartbeat...
one milestone down.

[lawyermom]

Hey mamas

So glad to find this thread. I've never had an MC (thankfully) but I had a stillbirth with my first - totally heartbreaking. He took three years and fertility treatment to conceive. We now have a happy healthy DD but I still freak out at every little twinge. I thought I saw blood last night and my heart literally stopped (turned out my hems are acting up )

It's just not possible to not attach to this baby, and I don't really want to not attach - because chances are I'll get to hold this little person in March. And so will all of you!

[jillybeans]

salt_phoenix: YAY! Congrats on such a wonderful milestone!

alisaparrent: I just knew that Riley was a boy. We actually never found out, but I'm 100% sure that's what the baby was. This one I'm not sure yet. I didn't get "the feeling" until about 7-8 weeks before.

Welcome lawyermom! for your loss, I couldn't even imagine.

[doulanichole]

With my first 2 m/c's, I started bleeding almost exactly 2 weeks to the day after I got a + pg test. I have passed this by several days so I am feeling a bit more secure. I had no idea with my blighted ovum and that has to be my biggest fear still. Just devastating to think all is well and then find no baby on the u/s at 8+ weeks. So that is still in my head a bit.

However, I feel pretty bad so I guess that's a decent sign. Really tired, irritable (moreso than usual - LOL), nauseous at times (almost threw up my vit this am).

I do not have a feeling about baby's sex as of yet. Most of the time I get a feeling but not yet. Before I found out I was pg, both myself and dh had dreams I was pg w/a boy.