Feel like I have the plague...
So I am new to this ddc, and I could be totally overreacting. (I am chock fill o' pregnancy hormones after all.) I've been all over the ttc boards on MDC posting, and have never experienced this, but it seems like when I post here, it halts a thread. Now, mind you, there aren't many active threads right now, but when I post, I feel like so few post after me.
Maybe I'm just spoiled. Maybe the ttc threads I've been on were just very active, but I get the feeling that the three losses in my sig are driving mommies away. Like maybe if they show up after me, my losses will rub off on them... I'm not contageous!
Surely, I'm overreacting. (Maybe I should add that to a symptoms list.)
My introduction to this PAL thread:
I'm Amanda. I'm 31, and this is my fifth pregnancy. We have a 6yo son who has lived with us since he was 9 months old, and whose adoption we finalized when he was 2 1/2.
Pregancy #1: Our dd (5yo)was a surprise pregnancy. We had been trying for a couple of months when I had been told I would be unable to get pregnant without surgery, etc. (Found out later that particular OB was a certified quack who had a problem with insurance fraud.) I was already 4 weeks pregnant when he said I couldn't get pregnant. We had just taken in ds, and found out two weeks later that I was 6 weeks pregnant. I had low progesterone with that pregnancy that was handled with vaginal suppositories. At 21 weeks, I found out I have an incompetent cervix. I had a rescue cerclage, and long story short, after bedrest and treatment for PTL, I gave birth at 36w1d. She had no issues or delays, no NICU stay, and came home with us 24 hours later.
Pregnancy #2: Officially another surprise. We had been trying for months with rounds of Clomid and Progesterone due to some secondary infertility, but had not been trying that particular month. We were going to DisneyWorld in January 2006, so my last month to ttc at that moment was Oct/Nov cycle. We did nothing in the Nov/Dec cycle, and I realized that I was pretty late for AF in December. I was nearly 6 weeks when I lost. I had blood drawn on a Friday, and got positive results back on Monday. The day my blood results came back positive, I lost the baby. Loss due to low progesterone and supplementation not occurring on time. Loss in Dec. 2005.
Pregnancy #3: We had been doing another many months of Clomid and Progesterone. I told my dh this would be the absolute last month I would try. I have a tipped uterus and my ovaries seem to be way high and in odd locations, so follicle checks are way painful for me. Anyway, I told him that and then had a discussion with my then OB about it. As it turns out, his nurse had been having me take progesterone at CD14 no matter what -- though I don't O until CD 18 or 19 and had been telling her that. All those many months, I was causing my inability to get pregnant. (Progesterone taken too soon causes CM to block sperm.) I corrected it that month, and conceived Ainsley. I was taking 300 mg oral Prometrium daily, and my levels bottomed out at 8w5d, and I lost her due to low progesterone. (I have Insulin Resistance, and while you normally absorb only about 10% of oral prometrium anyway, my OB later thought I was probably absorbing less because of my other issues.) Loss in Oct. 2006.
Pregnancy #4: We conceived Zachary in that first official cycle after we lost Ainsley. I didn't use Clomid and didn't plan on getting pregnant. In fact, the two previous losses after so much work had been way too heartbreaking, that I really felt like I was done. I realized when I was about 5 days late for AF that I was late, and POAS. Positive. It was Christmas holiday and the OBs office was closed, so I just began taking the Prometrium I had leftover from Ainsley. When I tested that next week, my progesterone levels were at like 36 and were holding steady. At just before 8 weeks, they began dropping rapidly from 36 to 22 to 16 in about four days. I insisted that my OB prescribe vaginal suppositories like I had taken with dd. He did, my levels rose to about 24 and stabilized. I continued with that until I weaned at 14 weeks. I had a preventative cerclage placed with Zachary at 13w4d to handle the incompetent cervix, and began taking progesterone injections at 15 weeks to prevent preterm labor. At 22 weeks, my transvaginal cerclage failed. I had PROM, cord prolapse, and had to be induced for birth at 22w1d. Zachary was born alive and died later.
Pregnancy #5: I had a Transabdominal Cerclage placed about 4 weeks after Zachary was born and died (placed on 05/21). It's a cerclage placed above my cervix to hopefully bypass whatever my cervix will do during pregnancy. My OB suggested waiting three months before ttc after his birth, so this was our first official month to try. I had blood drawn at what I thought was 10 dpo, and results were negative. Two days later, I poas and it was positive. The next morning (Monday), I had another bfp, so I went back for more blood. Also positive with an hCG level of 22. Because we were trying, I had been taking 200 mg Prometrium vaginally from 4 dpo, and have now switched to compounded natural progesterone suppositories twice daily. I'll probably wait until my first OB appointment for a draw to check levels. It's in a couple of weeks, and there's not alot more that I can do at this stage. At least, I don't think there is.
I'm trying not to be obsessive. I'm sure this pregnancy will look alot like my last pregnancy, with biweekly scans and lots of bloodwork, but I truly think all of my issues have been addressed, and I really expect this pregnancy to go full-term or very close to it. In between all of those invasions, I would really like to be as normal as possible and really enjoy evey moment rather than spending them freaking out. So, so glad to be a part of this ddc!