For those of you that remember me posting that on june 3rd my homebirth plan went in the shitter, my midwife came out to my house for my appt i was 40.3 weeks and the babys heartrate sounded slow to her so she had me go into the e/r for a biophysical profile now upon being hooked up to the monitor my pressure went high like 179/90 and a little higher but my midwife knowing my history of white coat syndrome should not have panicked, i dont have high blood pressure my nerves were bad because i was worried about the baby, so after 4 hours of hym hauling what to do it was adviced i have a c-section even though they said everything looked good with the baby, i refused and my midwife stated she was dropping me as a client she was not comfortable with my pressure readings. Now what was i to do????
ya know what , she knew my pressure gets high when i am scared but acted like i was pre-e or something) that i will never forgive her for........
anyway it has come to my attention by my DH that when they we are out in the hallway talking she (my midwife) was pressing for the c-section more then the hospital staff, can you imagine?????????????? My Dh just told this to me a week or so ago. I cant even believe my ears !!!!!!!!!!! what a AE@$$#^%$!! can you tell i am still angry??
anyhow to rewind at my 36 week appt i asked her not to bring a certain asst with her i wasnt comfortable with and she was a little peeved but found someone new to bring, ever since that conversation she was acting a little funny with me and getting all wrapped up in my high pressure readings at her last two visits which before all that she was not worried at all , my readings were like 138/88 sometimes lower but always low when i took them at home myself really low like 118/56 and she knew this.....
so i guess my point here is she showed up at the hospital two days post partum and wouldnt leave and kept on telling me my DD was hungry to put her to my breast well i just had a nursing session with DD and a LC for an hour, i was sick my DD was ok i wasnt starving her i just needed a few minutes to rest and all she could say was that, so i kindly asked her to leave and told her i would call her in the am, so my dh did and asked her to give us a couple of days alone and call us on such and such a day, well this horrible women had never called to even check on me to see how i was doing, All the money i paid her we are talking almost 2 grand and the money isnt even the issue,
how can someone whom is a midwife that cares for other women be so rude and heartless, she saw me cry for hours before the c-section and you would think she would have the courtesy to even just send me and email asking me how i was no NOTHING, well needless to say i will make it known to all my friends of just how uncompassionate and uncaring her services were,
i am hurt and in disbelief as to what happen and to find out my MIDWIFE had alot to do with the decision making regarding a major surgery on me, that once again I was put through unnecessarily , sorry to vent here i just needed to speak my mind...
I am trying to get over the dissapointment but having a hard time with it, this surgery has left me physical down and out for almost 5 weeks i am just starting to get around this time, nursing is going great and i am thankful that my DD is here and healthy, I was told that there was a knot in her cord when she was delivered though they werent sure if that would have meant a c-section during her birth , but i guess things happen for a reason, like i said i am very grateful for my DD 's but still will not be able to forget how they were both brought into this world.
thanks for reading!
ya know what , she knew my pressure gets high when i am scared but acted like i was pre-e or something) that i will never forgive her for........
anyway it has come to my attention by my DH that when they we are out in the hallway talking she (my midwife) was pressing for the c-section more then the hospital staff, can you imagine?????????????? My Dh just told this to me a week or so ago. I cant even believe my ears !!!!!!!!!!! what a AE@$$#^%$!! can you tell i am still angry??
anyhow to rewind at my 36 week appt i asked her not to bring a certain asst with her i wasnt comfortable with and she was a little peeved but found someone new to bring, ever since that conversation she was acting a little funny with me and getting all wrapped up in my high pressure readings at her last two visits which before all that she was not worried at all , my readings were like 138/88 sometimes lower but always low when i took them at home myself really low like 118/56 and she knew this.....
so i guess my point here is she showed up at the hospital two days post partum and wouldnt leave and kept on telling me my DD was hungry to put her to my breast well i just had a nursing session with DD and a LC for an hour, i was sick my DD was ok i wasnt starving her i just needed a few minutes to rest and all she could say was that, so i kindly asked her to leave and told her i would call her in the am, so my dh did and asked her to give us a couple of days alone and call us on such and such a day, well this horrible women had never called to even check on me to see how i was doing, All the money i paid her we are talking almost 2 grand and the money isnt even the issue,
how can someone whom is a midwife that cares for other women be so rude and heartless, she saw me cry for hours before the c-section and you would think she would have the courtesy to even just send me and email asking me how i was no NOTHING, well needless to say i will make it known to all my friends of just how uncompassionate and uncaring her services were,
i am hurt and in disbelief as to what happen and to find out my MIDWIFE had alot to do with the decision making regarding a major surgery on me, that once again I was put through unnecessarily , sorry to vent here i just needed to speak my mind...
I am trying to get over the dissapointment but having a hard time with it, this surgery has left me physical down and out for almost 5 weeks i am just starting to get around this time, nursing is going great and i am thankful that my DD is here and healthy, I was told that there was a knot in her cord when she was delivered though they werent sure if that would have meant a c-section during her birth , but i guess things happen for a reason, like i said i am very grateful for my DD 's but still will not be able to forget how they were both brought into this world.
thanks for reading!
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