Great now I think I'm going to lose my Mother

[Beckula]

I've been sitting on this for a month because i think i just couldn't physically or emotionally handle it. My Mother is a cervical cancer and breast cancer survivor and last month she collasped at work, luckily she works at a hospital, and they took her down for x-rays and they found a black spot on her lungs. She is a smoker and a drinker so I know she hasn't been taking care of herself but now she won't go and get it checked out and to be honest if it was cancer (or anything else) I don't think she has the fight left in her to go through with treatment. In fact she has said that if her cancer returned she wouldn't do anything about it. I NEED her, my babies need her. I am so scared. My fathers already dead, I don't want to lose both of my parents before I turn 30.

[RachelS]

Not in your ddc... but had to post.... BIG HUGS to you and your family right now!!! You and your family will be in our prayers!

[brooklyn_warbler]

i'm thinking of you, honey. i'll be praying everything is okay with your mama.

[Googy]

Oh gosh, I'm so sorry. Lots of hugs and thoughts and prayers headed your way!

[Kontessa]

She is your mother and of course you need her! ((((Hugs))))

I wish I knew what to say to make it better..... I wish we could give your mother the strength she needs for this. Sadly, nothing you can do, nothing anyone can do, can do this for her. It's not on you though, just remember that. Your loved, your wanted, your enough, your mom just has her own battles and her choice to not fight is not because of you I am sure.

[FillingMyQuiver]

and :

[GinaRae]

Gosh! This is incredibly hard on you, I can tell. I can see why your mom wouldn't want to fight it anymore, but that hurts her family too. It's a tough place to be!!! I'm hoping for all the best and sending you all the strength I can. HUGS!!!

[yogamama74]

[sandiegokristi]

[SuperMoM2GTO]

I just lost my mother this year : Its hard and as time goes by it just gets harder.

Just wanted to give you big and let you know your not alone.

[Monkeybutt]

[De-lovely]

Oh mama I am so sorry you have this to worry you. I cant imagine how you feel though I do wish you much peace and healing through all of this. Would it feel better to share your fears with your mama?

[mittendrin]

Oh, mama, I am so sorry. My mom has cancer, not terminal tho. She's 1000s of miles away and having my family die on me when I am this friggin' far away has always been my worst nightmare. Truth is, sooner or later we'll lose them all and it's the hardest decision we'll ever make - letting go.
I can understand her decision not to fight anymore, it is really though having to go thru treatments. Sad for her tho that she didn't take care of herself.
I can imagine how lost you must feel now, and I hope you and you mom can enjoy your time together. My heart goes out to you and I wish you and your mom all the best.

[*Lindsey*]

I'm so sorry, mama.

[sorteep]

OHHHH sweetie,, I am so so sorry for you,,,, there is absolutely nothing i can say to make it any better except to know I ma thinking of you and your family,, I pray for a miracle as well as peace for all... *try* to keep us posted or if you need us.. I miss my late motehr very much (died suddenly and unexpectedly 14 yrs ago on Mother's Day..) mothers are special, cherish every day, no matter WHAT is going on.. many hugs

[Isaac'sMa]

((((hugs)))) I am so sorry you have to go through this. We're here for you.

[Beckula]

Its weird but we actually didn't start to really be friends until I started having kids, its the bridge that rose over a past of teen angst and anger because I think I needed to see things from her point of view as a parent. The problem is that she won't even talk about this new problem, she just very pointedly changes the subject. I have to keep trying to tell myself that it could be anything, it doesn't have to be life threatening (the black spot on her lungs). I'm sorry this was kind of over-dramatic but I literally have no one to talk to about this except for my husband. God, I don't even think my brother knows (or cares) and I know my little brother doesn't know (he's 15) and I'm certainly not going to be the one to tell him, and most of my Aunts are too busy picking the dead carcass of my grandmother's estate and blaming all their problems on my family (because we are poor and they are not). So you guys are it though I don't know if this post made me feel better or worse because know I have to acknowlege this problem instead of burying it like I was trying to do before it just got to be too much, though your supportive replies were absolutely wonderful and I really appreciate them. Thank you.

[chrysalis]

hugs.

[Lexi_029]

: I hope everything turns out all right in the end.

[mama2alexa]

Sounds like lots of family issues don't make this any easier on you, mama. Hugs and hopeful strength to you and your mama.