I lost my mother very unexpectedly this past December 2. Nothing makes it easy, even though I had a really awesome relationship with her. Good relationship, bad relationship, losing your mom sucks. Nobody will ever love you like your mother. Nobody will ever love your kids like their maternal grandma. I wish there was something I could say to make things okay. I hope that your mama gets a reprieve this time. For now, all I can say is I'm here if you want to talk, and wish you and your mother all the hugs, love, luck in the world. We're here for you!