My oh my have this thread grown! This is so wonderful! Sorry its been a while since my last visit. I really need a "pick-me-up". I've been feeling better in some ways and annoyed at this WATER BALLOON feeling in my vagina! Tho, I'm optimistic. I consider myself lucky to feel so optimistic because its not of my nature to do so. I feel strongly that being positive will promote healing. And I can prove it!
When I gave birth to my 10ber I saw my entire vagina budging out of my body.
This really freaked me out, ok! But My wonderful Midwife at the time (a partner to the MW that helped deliver 3 of my previous HB children) told me "Don't worry about that, its normal, just do your kegals and you'll be fine!" That was that! I did my kegals and I healed.
4 m ago I had the same thing happen except I didn't care to notice until after my UTI. Bad UTI Bad! With every urge to expel urine came down my cervix. that stinging part during a UTI compelled my body to go into a pushing stage, similar to the pushing stage during labor. I think I was 3ks pp? This is when my MW told me about the time she pushed my cervix back into my body after delivering Liam. She thought it was a blood clot. I understand now why she inserted her hand into me after the apprentice asked, "uh whats that?" MW pushed down HARD on my belly after she put my cervix back into me. Then strongly advised me to NOT EVEN VACUUM! My house is terribly neglected. If I do anything my insides will fall out. This mess is a hazard too! I have to do something! So tomorrow I've got a friend that will come over to watch Liam and the others while I allow myself to work for 2 hrs. Thats it! 2rs to give this place some attention. I want this place back in order! Did giving birth disable me!? Since I'm feeling better I'll work back into a routine, slowly.
Oh, my point is, this MW is negative. Healing sucks. Positive MW= greater healing.
Love and peace to you all!
Originally Posted by Goatriffic
Coming out of the woodwork to thank everyone for this thread. I noticed my prolapse a few days after my 4th baby was born, 5 weeks ago. She was my biggest, 10lbs5oz, and I wonder if that contributed to the problem. I think I probably had a very mild cystocele before her but now I feel like I'm walking around with a baseball up there all the time. I'm fairly certain I have a cystocele and a rectocele. I haven't seen anyone about it yet because surgery isn't an option for me now, even if I did decide I wanted it.
I've rested as much as possible since she was born. We pretty much hung out in bed and relaxed for the first 3 weeks. And I'm still taking it easy. But it doesn't seem to be getting better and I'm so angry. I know I probably shouldn't be but I am. I hate the way this feels. I hate that I can't do things that I want to do because I'm worried I'll make it worse. I hate that it bothers me so much. I hate that I have to ask for help to do things that I didn't even think twice about before, like lifting laundry baskets. I feel hopeless and depressed a lot and I don't really have anyone irl to talk to about this that understands. But I do feel better knowing I'm not alone, so thank you for this thread. The Whole Woman site is giving me some hope that maybe some day I won't think about my vagina all day long.
Hang in there mama, I want to talk to you so I'm going to have my say tomorrow evening b/c right now I'm sssoooo tired. I'm so glad your here.
Congratulations on your new baby!
Originally Posted by wombatclay
hugs ecoteat...I'm so sorry. It sounds like you weren't pushing "too soon". You were listening to and going with your body. You didn't do this to yourself, you didn't mess up, you didn't do it wrong. It stinks, and it's not fair, and it's normal to mourn... but this really is just something that happens and sometimes it just isn't anyone's "fault". Like stretch marks. Sometimes you do everything "right" and it doesn't matter.
hang in there mama...
I've got a point to make of this too. Basically whenever I felt this after giving birth to the three last babies, (not so much with my dd) it was PAINFUL! Not anymore tho.