I'm 26 and this is my first child. I had a 33 hour labor... 26 hours w/o pain meds or any meds and then an epidural (my contractions slowed down and I was falling asleep, so fatigued.) and then pushed for about 1 hour. My baby was 9lbs and I needed an episiotomy. I was basically giving birth on my back, although they tried to tell me that lifting up my legs put me in a "squat position." I don't know when this happened...
I haven't read through this entire thread yet, but I intend to. I am amost 6 weeks postpartum and I have been having a rough time. I am pretty sure I have both cystocele and rectocele, but I don't know how badly. I've been crying a lot the past few days because of it. I started out having a really really hard time pooing after giving birth and I bleed every time. I think I have an internal hemmoroid now. I finally got up the courage to look down there at about 3 weeks PP and I started worrying about it. My urethra bulges and I have two lumps down there... It looks big instead of a hole, but someone else posted a pic in the beginning of the thread which matches what I have and someone else said that looked very minor so I sure hope so. My pp check up is next Monday...
I called my doctor around week 3 because I felt a lot of pressure down there and it burned a little when I peed. I thought I had a UTI and I might have. The nurse was going to call me in antibiotics but I was worried about thrush and am EBF, so instead I drank a ton of unsweetended cranberry juice, took organic cranberry pills and my usual probiotics. My BM issue didn't get better so two days ago I called again and told them that I was sure I had some prolapse as inside my vagina I felt a bulge on top and had to physically help my poo out. My cervix is definitely lower, too. Everything feels mushy and strange inside. She just informed me that my bladder being lower was normal and if it wasn't good by 6 weeks they might refer me to physical therapy.
Emotionally, I've been a wreck... I've been terrified of having to poop and had to resort to an enema yesterday which really ended up making me bleed. I'm feeling geriatric and extremely depressed. I've done a lot of research into this now, and it just made me more depressed. I've cried like 5 times today, but this thread is making me feel better because I see I am not alone and this seems to be a problem a lot of women have and don't talk about. I have told my husband everything and even showed him what I look like now and he is being sooo supportive when I need it. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have his shoulder to cry on. I also told my mom and she is basically telling me it is my fault because I must not have done enough kegels or because she thinks I gained too much weight. I think she is full of crap because a lot of women get this. I really want to wear my baby and be able to lose weight and get in shape, but I don't want to do anything to aggravate this and make it worse. I am probably going to get the whole woman stuff and the hab-it dvd.
Also, I saw someone else saying they use a footstool when they have a BM and that it helps. When I was doing research today I came upon this:
You can google squatting and pelvic organ prolapse, too. What I read made a lot of sense, so in desperation, I decided to try it. This is kind of embarassing, but I felt really desperate and terrified of going again. I used a tupperware thing and squatted in my tub... and it worked!!!! I still bled and it hurt a little but everything came right out, very quickly and I did not push even once. It was the same exact kind of hard backed up stool that ripped me apart and was really hard to get rid of the other day. I checked my rectocele or whatever it is, and there wasn't anything left in there. So... if you are having a lot of pain because of the rectocele and you can't go, just try this. I was so excited I ran out of the bathroom in happiness telling my poor subject to TMI husband that it worked lol. This is what made me decide to post this right now, because I am hoping this can help someone else.... It has made me feel a bit more positive about all of it, if I can avoid some of the pain I've been in.
Edited by Calliope84 - 1/6/11 at 7:40am