Second- I know how you are feeling since I was where you are a month ago.
make it!! Life is actually pretty pleasant here with 5 weeks olds and I've had a uterine infection, strep throat (thanks to a hosp. birth
: ) and lyme disease in that time.
Each night is going to be different (as will each day). I know body and breast type play a factor, but try to find a way to let both nurse at the same time (or quasi-nurse if that is what they want/need). I can't believe the babies tolerate it, but I side lie and have one nursing "normally" on the bottom breast and then toss the other baby so she is draped across my side with her face down on my breast, barely able to reach a nipple. (with her feet on the bed near my back) But it works in the sense that that baby is happy with it. Try to find something that is workable for now even if it is not ideal. Will the waiting child take a finger to suck? My kids would sometimes take a finger, even if they though a pacifier was poison!
You still are recovering from a lot. Not just birth, but from being pregnant. It takes time unfortunately, but you can't change that. Although it seems "wrong" that when we most need to feel well and be on top of our game is when we are struggling physically and emotionally. (I hate when this was said to me, and I'm sorry to say it to you, BUT... your hormones are messing with you sister. Again, nothing but time will help that!)
Hang in there.
Let everything go that you can. Let others do things you can't even imagine letting them do even though they'll do it "wrong" or differently. Your girls will make it all worthwhile, even though you feel like it is all falling apart now.
Take the credit you deserve- You ARE doing it.
oh and one last bit of advice that is working for me- chocolate!