Phew! Huge weekend over here in Poet-land, and I'm feelin' chatty, so here goes. Fri. morning I had many many vials of blood drawn for all manner of testing--FSH, Rh, CBC, estrogen, prolactin...I had to do it on no food or drink and afterwards, I was just about crawling out of there, so I made it to the nearest cafe (starbucks-yuck) and it was 8:45 am so the line was like out the door and I did not think I would make it w/out passing out as the triple no-foam extra hot half-caf venti lattes struggled to order a drink so specific it seemed a parody of itself. So I needed some kind of inner strength. How would I make it through this line? I stared out the window and there was this super duper jowls down to his knees droopy eyed dog on the other side with the most human face I've ever seen on a dog and I locked eyes with him and said Okay Buster, give me some doggy mojo here and I swear, the fellow delivered, did not look askance for a millisecond.
So, waiting on those results...
Then Sat. DH (also a poet) and I read at a huge annual Environmental Poetry Festival in Berkeley called Watershed which was great. We read on a creek walk and gave a talk and got interviewed by NPR then read again later two more times on the big stage thing. Then, today I read from my poetry book at a winery, great day, kind of far out there so just got back. Now I am facing up to the fact that I have to start teaching tomorrow after a summer of writing. Just part-time for a few weeks, not too bad.
The wonky thing was yesterday I saw a friend (DH's best friend's wife) who is 12 weeks preg. and it was...interesting. We have the same birthdays so we get lumped together a lot even though we're pretty different. She knew when we started TTC and a few months in made the comment that they better get started since it was taking us so long and then proceeded to get preg. the first time. (not too sympathetic to her complaints). She addressed feeling guilty that she was + and I was not, and I genuinely felt generous with her, like I can separate that we are having diff. experiences and lots of things in my life have probably come easy etc. I felt great about how I handled it, but then later, a bunch of her friends (who all have kids under age 2) were there and she announced that I was trying to gain weight for fertility and of course, that was just so interesting blah blah blah. I fought back some serious tears and gave some hardcore signals to change the conversation, but I had to say later that this was not to be brought up like that again.
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Thanks to the Grads for good wishes and baby dust all around.
Frog, hoping this week brings you the best kind of news.
Rain, me too, tons of widows peaks! I call it the superhero hairline!
Jencat, you sure got some good doggie style encouragement from your BD thread. Hope the weekend was juicy and fertile for ya!
(that was interesting too! may take note in a few days)
Anica, GL! Welcome to official TTC!
Michelle, I will happily jump on your down with the BP bandwagon! GL to you as your chart progresses up this month!
Now, I have to plan that goshdarn class for 8:30 manana.
: I admire your restraint with testing - I will try to follow your example! Best of luck!
to you this month!!
Hello to everybody else!
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: but I second what you said about the pill... I totally didn't want to do it but my doc (traditional GP) convinced me Loestrin 24 was low-dose and all that, so I tried it cuz DH and I weren't married yet and we weren't very good about condoms (we hate them). It immediately killed my libido, and it didn't feel normal again til, well, my second tri of pregnancy 
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