Pregny Brain Strikes Again! Oh My!

[Kontessa]

Ok so it seems I forgot to pay my bills last money.... um.... I swear I thought I mailed out checks, thus I have no more checks. I ordered some last Friday but who knows when they will show up. Dang water bill can not be paid by phone or online, how old school. I am going to have to go get a money order! Grrrrrr

So I did my budget and OMG are things tight. Me trying to live off of $250 for food and gas for 2 weeks. This leaves no money for Hyena you see, no spendy money, no eating out, and I am going to have take care with the sitters I will need durring this time. It could be worse right? I could take out the $200 that went to savings this pay check but man, that stinks. I need that for emergencies and honestly my van is acting up and might well be an emergency soon. DDs birthday stuff is going to have to wait till the 15th. I hope a bowling party is not going to cost me an arm and a leg!

All this complaining and in the end, I must say, I love my life! I have power, water, food, a van that at the moment runs, a home. My children are wonderful and healthy, and I have the love of my life. Abundance in many forms. Very Lucky. So please excuse this little vent, I think I am just shocked that I forgot to pay things. LOL Life could be far worse and really it is looking up, if nothing else, new little eyes to think I am perfect will be here in November right?

[crystalalene]

Originally Posted by Kontessa

... if nothing else, new little eyes to think I am perfect will be here in November right?

This is so true.

I seem to be getting tied up 'in the moment', and feeling down about everything, but I am working on positive self-talk whenever the baby kicks me in the gut. Rather than getting aggravated--- and starting the acid reflux again--- I try to take a deep breath and give thanks for what I've got, and trust that things will work out okay.

I know we will have a homebirth, that we are all healthy, and that all the other 'stuff' (laundry, dishes, dusting, organizing, nesting) will still be there tomorrow, or whenever we get to it.

[*Lindsey*]

Oh my, Kontessa! I hope you get that bill paid and escape a late fee.

I totally agree about the important things in life. It's really struck me this week and I'm looking at a lot of things differently.

[Curlita]

Money is never a joy to stress over... I hope that things all fall together for you.

When Dylan was 1, my husband was out of work for nine. long. months. and was denied unemployment. It was extremely stressful, but the thing that amazed me was that Dylan was completely oblivious. He was fed and clothed and loved and completely happy. That helped alleviate the fears that we were experiencing as adults.

[GinaRae]

Money woes... ahhhh how I know this so well! $1300 or so a month that I had when TTC has partially dried up and the rest may go away too. "The rest" being child support checks.

My ex is supposed to pay child support for the oldest two boys, though they call my hubby "Dad" and he's been in their lives since my middle son was a baby. BUT suddenly the check didn't show (again) and I am sitting here with no groceries, etc.. because that's what his check is budgeted for (school clothes, groceries, lunch money, shoes, etc...).

We would sorely miss those measley checks (I have friends who get checks bigger than mine for one child) BUT still I try to get him to sign the kids over for adoption by my husband because hubby and I are happy and blissful in our family and it's stressful having this outside force.

Much as I like the extra money buffer, we're willing to go without it so we can become a stronger family. The bio dad will always be just that, my kids are old enough to know him and talk with him. But we would be so much happier without his input and legal ties.

My point is, this is stressful, but we're happy, you know? And I will do anything to increase that happiness.