feeling sad and stuck
Hi everyone, I've posted a couple of time but haven't really intro'd myself. I'm a sahm to three kiddos, dd 10, dd 4, and ds 8 months. DH works as a sous chef in a country club which isn't the best paying job in the world, to say the least. We recently moved to Long Island from Texas to be closer to his family after the restaurant where he used to work had a fire and closed. In order to make the move, we had to live with my inlaws for a couple of months. Well, we're finally back out on our own, but I don't know know how we're going to make it...it's going to be really tight.
Dh thinks all our problems would be solved if I went back to work full time. I just feel like we'd be paying 90% of my income on childcare, disposable diapers, gas, work clothes, and other expenses that we save on because I stay home. That 10% that I'd be bringing home is not worth being separated from ds. He still nurses all the time and....I'm sure I don't have to explain to any of you why I feel it would be a bad thing to suddenly be gone from him for 8 or more hours a day at this stage in his development.
So I've decided to swallow my pride and apply for all the aid the state of NY has available. I think we'll at least qualify for food stamps which might be worth as much as I'd be bringing home if I were to get a job. I've already applied for state healthcare for the kids, but I haven't heard anything back from them yet. I'm also hoping to get some income watching a child or two in my home. Of course, it would be great if my exhusband ever paid me the child support he owes.
Well, I guess I'm just here to vent to people who know what it's like to go through this. Thanks for listening.