Dreaming about being alone at birth

[GinaRae]

I forgot to mention this in my last dream thread. I am having a recurrent dream (and daydreams!) about laboring in the water while my husband sleeps, and giving birth before midwives arrive. Usually he's just waking up for the birth.

It's all in a positive light in my dream too. I am wondering if my subconscious is telling me something? I am SO not going to have a UC on purpose! I am too nervous. But I wonder what it's telling me.

Perhaps I am concerned that there are too many people pushing to be here and therefore I want no one at all.

[sorteep]

funny, I had a similar dream when I fell asleep suring my last accupuncture txp.. I sort of woke thinking I just want to "be" and be left alone so I was really quiet and laobored and del w/o anyone noticing! it was very peaceful! wonder where she put THOSE needles!?? I think it is a natural animal instinct to seclude oneself for delivery.. nothing abnormal as far as I see it..

[sorteep]

geeze, I'm glad it's you Gina, since I hope I did not offend with the whole "animal" comparison.. I did not mean it like you are an animal or anything!! leave it to me!!! sooory.. my brain is half fried today (up since 1 am no sleep seriously pulled groin muscle working yesterday ouchhhh so I ma out of it..)

[cheeseRjedi]

Everytime I try to imagine myself in labor I imagine locking myself in my bedroom and then DH and the midwife coming in as I push the baby out into my own hands.

[GinaRae]

Laura I don't think that was insulting at all for anyone. I do think it's a primal thing. Some of us want to be alone while others may want to be surrounded.

I just keep dreaming that my room is comfortably lit with the orange glow from my salt lamp, I am in the pool at the foot of the bed, laboring quietly while hubby sleeps. Don't ask me HOW I got the water in the pool without him noticing and how I am so quiet because even though I am not TOO loud, I would assume I'd have to make some noise during those rough contractions, you know?

And I am always wearing a black tank/athletic bra of some kind too. But that might just be an image I picked up from watching births on YouTube.

Anyway, maybe the dream isn't necessarily telling me I want to be alone but rather just that I am happy and peaceful laboring at home and everything's going well. That could be it.

[sorteep]

Ohhh good...

I think that is a great interpretation of the dream!!

BTW I love my salt lamp.. ummmm DH calls it the "sex light" although it currently resides in my office ???? OH well

[shelley4]

you know what, i feel very drawn to being alone for this birth too... all of my dreams about this birth have been very UC-like, although not a real UC, as my midwife has been there, in the background somewhere, but being completely hands off. i labour by myself, i push in total silence, i catch my own baby, no one even talks to me until after the baby is on the breast. it feels like heaven in my dreams!

and since my dd came so fast (2 hours from first contrax to placenta, our primary MW came, the second didn't make it in time), i've talked to DH about what would happen if the midwife just didn't make it in time, and we're both at peace with it. i still plan on calling her though, i really like her, and feel like she really is as hands off as in my dream, so i think this birth will be the most UC-like one yet!

[GinaRae]

I think it's also becoming a visualization for me... a way to work it out now so I am peaceful when I am in labor.