If you don't have a lot of time just skip to the real question at the bottom!OK............Help me out here fellow Muslim Mamas..............
I have been out of hijab for the entire time I've been a mom.
I mean, not entirely, I wear it to the masjid of course. A few other times I have worn it.
I was in hijab when I first got married, and for a year or so before that, I don't recall exactly. It's a long story as to why I took it off, but it wasn't for any good reason, because there just isn't one.
I want to go back to hijab. I have decided that I need to do this to be an example for my kids. How can I expect to raise children who are confident in who they are if I'm not confident in myself?? I was definently more confident in hijab than I am out of it.....and who am I trying to impress, or fit in with? Why do I care about that? If I'm Muslim, and a Muslim is supposed to wear hijab, then right now, do I stop being Muslim every time I walk out the door? Am I only a Muslim while I'm praying, when I'm around other sisters, when I'm at the masjid?
What am I avoiding? Not fitting in? Discrimination? Well, guess what? My kids and my husband don't get to take off their skin when somebody decides they don't like the color of it.
If I am a Muslim, and I believe a Muslim woman is supposed to wear a hijab, which I do, then why would it be right to take it off because somebody else doesn't like it? Just because I happen to, at this point in my life, live in an area where I can take it off and I become the majority and thus I don't have to face discrimination? I don't have to face not fitting in the mommy club? And what exactly does fitting in to the mommy club get me if I'm living a lie to do it?
What does it get me if I have kids who have learned that following rules of Islam is not important?
If it's OK for me to not be in a hijab, then is it OK for my son to drink when he goes to college and is of age? Is it then OK for my daughter to wear miniskirts and belly-baring tops?
OF course it's not.
So, my actual question, after all of that.
What do you wear if you're breastfeeding?! I am having a hard time finding clothing that has easy access. I can nurse a newborn in a sling covered, I know I can, but not if I can't access the 'boo!' I have basically not gone to the masjid with my kids until they're several months old and can go a couple hours without nursing because of this!
(my current baby is past newborn, and rarely nurses away from home anymore, but someday we do want one more I think and if I'm going to spend $ on nice clothes, I don't want to have to scrap it all and buy another wardrobe)