umsami, thanks so much for your post, thank all of the others who replied as well. I love the analogy mamefati used about us being like children to Allah, I think that we probably forget that too much. I would love to go to Jummah, but my kids get out of school at almost the exact same time, so it is virtually impossible for me to go, since I am the one that picks them up, I have considerred picking them up early on Fridays, but I don't know how the school would react. I think I am going to start picking a time, even if it is just one prayer a day and doing it without making excuses, that would help a lot, I think. I am glad that I am not the only person who has ever been in this place, and just realizing that helps a lot.
This spring, I am taking intro to Islam and Islam in Africa in school, and I am super excited about it. I feel like I will finally have the time to sit down and really read and study our beautiful faith, without getting a hard time from the hubby for not studying my coursework.
Sounds like you have a plan. I totally think you will refall in love with Islam when you start your courses. You are totally not the only one... there's a book by Jeff Lang called "Struggling to Surrender". It really really spoke to me.
So... what is everybody planning for Eid?? What are your traditions?? We usually do new clothes...although hubby and I probably will wear our stuff from last Eid as we didn't get to go due to the entire family being very sick. The kids get one or two toys. I usually buy bagels or donuts for before we go to the masjid...and then when we come home, we make fattah.
Insha'Allah, we'll make Eid cookies again (sheep shaped for Eid or maybe Kaaba brownies)... and I usually decorate with balloons and Eid banners and such.
What about you???