post #21 of 81
8/8/07 at 3:16pm
Thanks everyone for your replies. And thanks for the link captain optimism, I'll have to check that out. I was wondering if there was a support group in my area.
It's hard to read books and things about suicide b/c they all seem geared to people that have had normal relationships--I haven't really found one that dealt with suicide after an abusive relationship and the feelings that it entails.
I do wish that things had turned out differently and do wish that I knew what he was thinking, and why he chose to end his life so alone. I know that I'm only human and can't save everyone, but that doesn't make it any easier. I just wish he wouldn't have been so stubborn and gotten the help he needed. He never talked about suicide, never gave any hints, or maybe he did but they were so subtle that I or anyone else he talked to, never saw them; this just came out of the blue.