scared to test

[mesa]

If I'm pregnant, my edd is April 16th. I have a 26 day cycle, and AF was due yesterday, still no sign of her. I'm frightened to test, I guess because I don't want to test fate. I had a miscarriage in December, and another in March...and before this, I had never had a miscarriage before, I had 2 healthy pregnancies. Honestly the possibility of mc never even entered my head.

Until now. I'm feeling a strong urge to not even call my doc until after 13 weeks. I didn the "early intervention" thing with the second miscarriage, and a whole lotta good THAT did me. I don't know what I'll do. If I can hold out, I'll test on Saturday. Day after tomorrow. That's a long way away....especially when I see positive test results with edd's later than mine.

[ORLY?]

I'm not too sure what to say, just that I'm wishing the best for you.
And, take your time.

[sadiejane08]

Hugs to you, mesa. I'd say don't worry too much, but I know that's impossible. I hope you get a big fat nice dark positive on Saturday!

[Mayfly]

I just wanted to let you know you are not alone. I have been lurking like mad!! I had a very early m/c in Jan., tried for a couple months w/out success, we took a few months off and then decided to TTC 1 again. My period was due on Monday and my temps have stayed high but I can't test yet. I'm petrified of seeing a BFN. It's all very stressful! If it is a BFN then where's my period?! My boobs were really sore and full, but now they're less full but still sore so that's freaking me out. I read symptoms can come and go but who knows. Haha! Can you tell I'm stressed and obsessing?
So good luck and try to stay positive. We can do it!!

[apriljoy]

(((hugs))) to you. I'll be sending you all the positive, sticky vibes I can muster.

[sadiejane08]

Mayfly, crossing my fingers for you, too!

[My3babes]

Testing or not testing will not affect the outcome but I can understand the fear!

HUGS and hoping for a good outcome to both of you!

[mesa]

Well, I caved and tested this morning......BFN. No sign of AF either. It's weird, because with both of my miscarriages, I tested positive the day AF was due. I don't have a point of reference with my two healthy pregnancies, because I was scatterbrained and super busy. I was 10 weeks with Nicolas before I realized I was pregnant, and I don't remember how far along I was with Noah, but I had definitely missed a couple of periods. I just woke up one day and realized I was pregnant. I miss those days...

Thank you so much for the replies, and thoughts. And babydust to you, Mayfly!! Obsessing....yeah, that's a good way to describe it. It's driving me insane

[Mayfly]

Sorry about the BFN but don't give up hope. It may just be too early. I got a really early BFP w/ my m/c and had so many symptoms so soon. Maybe it just takes a little longer for healthy pregnancies to present themselves in us. Thanks for your thoughts Who knows what will happen.

Thanks SadieJane and M3babes as well

May