Can you have post parteum depression after a miscarriage and if so, how can you tell the difference between ppd and the grieving process?
I'm having quite a time of things and I don't know where the line is drawn to be concerned. I have just been "faking it until I make it" and am finding that it isn't doing the trick anymore.
I cannot keep asleep. I wake up after a couple of hours and stay up crying or going over the events of the miscarriage in my mind.
I don't really care to eat. I eat only as necessary and have lost about 10 lbs in the last month. Is this post parteum weight loss or weight loss to be concerned about?
I am having anxiety over the simplest of things. I have been alone with my dc for the last three weeks as dh is out of town. He has been back for a couple of days and tomorrow is his last day off and then he will be back out of town again until at least the end of the month. I am near a meltdown when I think of doing it alone again.
I am withdrawing from social obligations. I run a not-for-profit for NFL, teach yoga, volunteer with several not-for-profit groups and I don't want to be involved in anything right now and am cancelling all classes, and suspending all ties right now.
I lack general drive for life, really not interested in keeping my house clean (HUGE for me as I am a classic type A personality), personal hygiene not a real priority, naked baby crawling around the house and children still in jammies during the day.
And the day before yesterday, I half-heartedly joked about everything being too much to handle and thinking of opening the truck door as we sped down the highway and tossing myself out....but part of me could imagine myself doing it. Do I have suicidal ideations...no, but not the best thoughts either.
And I keep thinking that boy oh boy would it be nice to have some alcohol or drugs to numb the pain, even for just a little bit. I do not drink or do drugs so this is a biggie for me...
I am bfing my 11 month old and ttc so I may be pregnant and if not need to behave like I am pg so antidepressants are out of the question (and please don't try to talk me into this as I have survived my life and previous ppd without it).
Professionally speaking, I don't have anyone to talk to as the only option is a mental health nurse who I saw her previously a couple of times for another issue and stopped going to her when she told me to "suck it up princess". Any other professional help is an hour away and I am home alone with three dc.
So I am left to my own devices and want to be as proactive as possible...but I am wondering if I am slipping into dangerous territory or is this normal for the grieving process?
I'm having quite a time of things and I don't know where the line is drawn to be concerned. I have just been "faking it until I make it" and am finding that it isn't doing the trick anymore.
I cannot keep asleep. I wake up after a couple of hours and stay up crying or going over the events of the miscarriage in my mind.
I don't really care to eat. I eat only as necessary and have lost about 10 lbs in the last month. Is this post parteum weight loss or weight loss to be concerned about?
I am having anxiety over the simplest of things. I have been alone with my dc for the last three weeks as dh is out of town. He has been back for a couple of days and tomorrow is his last day off and then he will be back out of town again until at least the end of the month. I am near a meltdown when I think of doing it alone again.
I am withdrawing from social obligations. I run a not-for-profit for NFL, teach yoga, volunteer with several not-for-profit groups and I don't want to be involved in anything right now and am cancelling all classes, and suspending all ties right now.
I lack general drive for life, really not interested in keeping my house clean (HUGE for me as I am a classic type A personality), personal hygiene not a real priority, naked baby crawling around the house and children still in jammies during the day.
And the day before yesterday, I half-heartedly joked about everything being too much to handle and thinking of opening the truck door as we sped down the highway and tossing myself out....but part of me could imagine myself doing it. Do I have suicidal ideations...no, but not the best thoughts either.
And I keep thinking that boy oh boy would it be nice to have some alcohol or drugs to numb the pain, even for just a little bit. I do not drink or do drugs so this is a biggie for me...
I am bfing my 11 month old and ttc so I may be pregnant and if not need to behave like I am pg so antidepressants are out of the question (and please don't try to talk me into this as I have survived my life and previous ppd without it).
Professionally speaking, I don't have anyone to talk to as the only option is a mental health nurse who I saw her previously a couple of times for another issue and stopped going to her when she told me to "suck it up princess". Any other professional help is an hour away and I am home alone with three dc.
So I am left to my own devices and want to be as proactive as possible...but I am wondering if I am slipping into dangerous territory or is this normal for the grieving process?
