Evenings are hard for me

[crunchymommy26]

This is my third time coming into this forum today trying to get up the nerve to post.

My beautiful daughter is only a week old, and I'm on paxil, but evenings are hard for me and I'm crying over NOTHING.

I know I need to give the meds another week to really start kicking in, but until then I feel lost. I was so hoping I wouldn't be plagued by PPD again, but I kind of knew I would given my history of depression. Even during pregnancy it was getting bad.

I'm greatful to have this forum to post in so that I don't bother people, or risk being called crazy or a freak.

[gwerydd]

evenings can be so hard with a newborn. find something that you find peaceful and distracting-reading a book, taking a bath, watching a comforting television program or movie, talk to a friend on the phone. it will get better though it may take time. this list is great for support and i hope it helps you.

-gwerydd

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[Surfacing]

crunchymommy26 - hang in there. I'm sorry things are so difficult and dark right now. I'm glad to hear you are dialoguing with your doctor and I hope the Paxil helps you. Have you been on it before? In the meantime, I wonder if you have the energy to do some light "exercise", like swaying to music at night. I wonder if there's a soothing ritual that might help you, like preparing yourself a cup of tea and putting up your feet. Do you feel comforted by touch? Can dh rub your back or feet or something? Do you have family around to talk to or get some support from? Perhaps posting up notes for yourself too, doing a little mantra at night, "This will pass, it will get better..." might help. Keep logging on here to talk too. You're not alone.

[dany]

Breathe deep - way way down in your gut deep, and blow it out.

Evenings really do seem to be awful for some reason, don't they? I know that I at least can sail through a day beautifully just to be a panicky mess by six-thirty. But breathe deep. You're getting help, and you know where to find people that empathize (here!).

This will pass.

[coco4cloth]

Evenings were always hard on me! I could tell when it was 5:30 pm without even looking at the clock. Hang in there!

[timneh_mom]

I think evenings can be really tough, because you're so tired from getting through the day, and often babies are more fussy during that time as well. And, I always found that evenings were particularly bad because I absolutely dreaded the nighttime... DD has never slept well and DS was worse. I'm still not sure whether I have some PPD or if it's from chronic lack of sleep but I've had severe depression before and this sure feels similar.

I hope your medication kicks in soon, you will start feeling better when that happens... also the early weeks are SO hard sometimes! It will pass, although I know it can't pass quickly enough when you don't feel good!

[LogansMama1979]

I am just reading up on some of these things and I can say that you are definitely NOT a freak. By now it has been a few months and I am sure it is better for you, but I just wanted to say I have been there. My son is still hard to manage, and the nights are always the thing that put the knot in the pit of my stomach. You are not crazy. Hope you are getting the hang of it, and sending healing thoughts your way.