Ok, I'm only partially serious with the title. I'm just really bummed. DH is on a boat in the middle of nowhere with work, totally out of rech of my communication. I just called the health clinic that does our IUIs, to give them a head's up that I expect to ovulate this Sunday or Monday. As it turns out, our physician is on vacation, and is not expected to return until mid September. We took last month "off" because she was on vacation! No mention of not being here for the end of August. She's the only physician in the city who does IUIs, and that clinic has our sperm in their storage tank, so even if we could, I don't think taking it elsewhere would be an option. I really, really wish I could convince this physician to release the sperm to DH and I. I feel pretty comfortable talking him through the whole thing - even if he winds up only being comfortable doing ICI.
I've cried, but know that is a useless reaction. I actually kind of liked having a month off from all of this - drinking more than one glass of wine, soaking in a hot tub, going flat-out physically for the entire cycle, epsom salt baths... All things that my paranoiod self does in moderation or not at all when I "could" be pregnant. Anyway, I think I had myself psyched up for only one cycle off, so these feelings of sadness, panic, hurt, are all really just disappointment. But, it sucks all the same. May is such a good month for birthing, I think, and for being born. Now we're on to June. Big sigh.
Wanna join my pity party? Help me get "over" it?
Katia
I've cried, but know that is a useless reaction. I actually kind of liked having a month off from all of this - drinking more than one glass of wine, soaking in a hot tub, going flat-out physically for the entire cycle, epsom salt baths... All things that my paranoiod self does in moderation or not at all when I "could" be pregnant. Anyway, I think I had myself psyched up for only one cycle off, so these feelings of sadness, panic, hurt, are all really just disappointment. But, it sucks all the same. May is such a good month for birthing, I think, and for being born. Now we're on to June. Big sigh.
Wanna join my pity party? Help me get "over" it?
Katia
: It really stinks to be dealing with IF and logistics of having your partner out of reach! 
