i cringe at what dd was put through

I don't even know what all of it was, because I could only hear it. hb transferred to a c/s.. records say they used the delee upon delivery of the head. i remember hearing a very strong loud cry, but who knows if that was before or after the delee. then they took her over to the warmer for some nice dramatic extra suctioning, because when my water broke there was very very light mec staining. pffft. my records said they didn't find any though. great, confirm that it wasnt necessary! after that she was wrapped up and dh held her by my face.. wrapped up so that all i could see was her eye brows to her chin! she was breathing kinda loud and sounding wet, and dh was kind of concerned about that and i kept telling him she's fine, its normal. then they took her back to mess with her some more and i didn't see what happened but i heard a smacking sound

dh said it was gentle but it sounded awful. i could do nothing! and i was too drugged and loopy to yell at them to stop. i hate that they were hitting her for no reason. then they did a cbc and it came back with one number high, possibly indicating infection "but sometimes its high due to stress"..GEEZ! Unceremoniously rip her out of me, orally assault her, smack her, then repeatedly stab her in the heal..I imagine that would be a wee bit upsetting

So then they poke her precious little baby foot again. after she'd gotten to snuggle and nurse a bit. shocker: it was normal that time.

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