Ooh a fertility carving! What a cool find!
Hmm, last pg I was not loving being pregnant at all. I was very stressed and scared about labor and birth and I was afraid of my care providers, I just didn't trust them. I didn't eat well and I didn't feel good and I feel like I missed out so much on everything I was supposed to enjoy about being pregnant.
So this time I am loving every second of it. Last night my nips hurt when dd kept nursing all night, and I was like Oh boy! Nipple pain! And then this morning I felt crummy while I was eating my banana and my oatmeal and my chocolate milk and I was like Oh boy! Morning sickness is getting stronger!
This time I am loving taking the time every day to pay attention to what I eat. I have set up a food diary so I can follow the Brewer Diet and I am looking forward to putting on 50 pounds so that I don't go down to a skinny size 2 while I am nursing. I feel so healthy and capable of bringing forth a new life and then sustaining it and my dd and nurturing them. I feel very strong and powerful.
I'm also looking forward to my pregnant body when it is really showing. In my town there are a lot of Hispanic men and they just *stare* at women they think are attractive and they love bigger women and pregnant women, but I've even noticed young, teenage white kids checking me out when I am big. It's so weird, but I guess I appreciate knowing that most people think the pregnant woman is a beautiful thing. Dh always teases me about it and then tries to get some, he loves my body no matter what shape it is in.
I'm also looking forward to labor so much. I enjoyed it last time until I was getting exhausted. I think it wouldn't have taken so long if I had been at home and more comfortable, so I will really be loving my homebirth.