For me having my heart in something means Im dedicated, Im committed, I know it is the best thing to be doing.
The things we did today...I remember being in elementary school and doing those same things...I loved it and they are two fond memories I have.
Am I depressed other times? Not as bad as I had been for the past 3 yrs...i have a mood disorder and it is well managed now. Which is another thing that causes me to doubt homeschooling being the best idea. Is it added stress that I dont need...will it cause my dc to resent me?
Dh and I strongly desire for our dc to have a well rounded liberal arts education. It is non-negotiable. Our school work takes 2 hours max and I rarely do projects. The kids take to it happily, they like what we are doing, they complain when we are done. I would continue on, but at that point I am DONE.
If we had a Classical school here...I would enroll them in a heartbeat...but we dont...and that is why we homeschool. I wouldnt be conflicted at all. There are some Catholic schools I wouldnt hestitate to put my dc in...but we are focusing on getting out of debt, and they arent accepting any more students.
I do like being with my kids....but I think all the togetherness really wears on me...and then I wind up doing bare minimums because of all the interaction. Yes, I do tend to be introverted...but I also have a strong need to socialize.
My dh also works 60-80 hrs a week. We go on a lunch date on Tuesdays...and that is fun...but Im with the kids all the time, and handle all the household responsibilities. When dh is home, I want him to be with the dc...not mowing the grass.