Ok...Im MUCH better today and spent yesterday and today REALLY taking stock of things.
I signed the boys up for the homeschool gym that we have here
I emailed two co-ops to see if they have any openings...I would only have to handle one morning a semester...and they would do art and music and science with the boys.
The HS moms I met here are really great, and have become fast friends. You know when you meet people and there is just that insta-connect? Its great the kids are the same age, but you also enjoy spending time with each other? Its like that. Instead of feeling un-inspired, I think I will just coat tail on their fun inspirations.
And then my kids will do the fun stuff.
They do unit studies....Im more of a Classical/Charlotte Mason sort.
Ok...I have also realized that I need a LIFE. Im not just a homeschool mom...Im Alana. THis is my job for the next few years, but if I was a Veternarian my whole being wouldnt be defined by the fact I do that as a career.
In only have one real hobby that I have a life long love of...okay 2...but right now Im too fat to do ballet (that will be my prize when I lose 30 lbs.
Anyway...that love...ok..more than love...its been a passion since I was four..is horse back riding. I started riding when I was 5...had a few horses, and it was this bug that never left. I put it on hold the past 7yrs.
However...lessons + babysitter will wind up costing 80-100$ a pop.
Earlier today I found a listing for a horse. Beautiful little Quarter Horse...she was used as a broodmare, family is not going to breed any longer...they want a very reasonable amt for her...and will keep her at their barn..for FREE till Aug. 2008. She is preg. and due in April...so that will be when the foal is weaned. They just want the foal.
I emailed it to dh thinking he would die laughing. Instead he said "Sounds great, lets do it!"
We are going to see her on Sunday and discuss specifics.
THough i keep laughing at myself, I am acting like my single best friend...everytime she meets a new guy she plans out their wedding and wonders what they would be like as a husband....Im wondering where we would stable the horse next year....what discipline I would train her under...or train her both english and western...how my kids would have a 4H project, and when her training is done, I could half lease her and then only have half the responsibility yet still have that bliss in my life.
Im a nut...but a happy one.
So now homeschoolign isnt seeming so daunting, and maybe the whole issue isnt the teaching....its me trying to be everything, and having NOTHING that is mine.