Ok...Im MUCH better today and spent yesterday and today REALLY taking stock of things.
Ok...I have also realized that I need a LIFE. Im not just a homeschool mom...Im Alana. THis is my job for the next few years, but if I was a Veternarian my whole being wouldnt be defined by the fact I do that as a career.
Im a nut...but a happy one.
So now homeschoolign isnt seeming so daunting, and maybe the whole issue isnt the teaching....its me trying to be everything, and having NOTHING that is mine.
FWIW I am realizing that I don't enjoy the co-op/group learning thing. I enjoy purely social visits but getting together to do planned learning activities bugs me. : I'm not sure exactly why-- the moms are nice, but the whole vibe bugs me, even if they're doing things I would do with my kids at home.
I sign my kids up for drop-off classes, but I don't get together with families for learning stuff, and I don't teach.
Sorry you're going through a rough time. I hope you can figure out a path that feels right.