I feel like I'm being crushed under my worry over this pregnancy.
I can't remember when AF was in May. DH thinks it was late in the month. I'm still nursing Henry very frequently so I know this can mess up my ovulation schedule.
No AF in June at all. BFP on July 1. It was very bright very quickly.
For the past 2 weeks I've been exhausted, emotional, very queasy, my breasts are very tender, and I've had lower abdominal achiness. I'm not really pooching out (I did have a baby just a year ago.
), but I am thicker around the midsection in general. These are all good sticky baby signs I think?
I made the appt for my first visit thinking I was 6-8 weeks along. The dr. did a transvag US to estimate a date and said - quite surprised - "oh, you're pretty small, probably only 5 weeks along." I don't know if he meant 5 weeks as in the baby is 3 weeks along plus the 2 weeks they count for AF or 5 weeks as in the baby is actually 5 weeks along.
He saw a well defined sack and said he thought he saw a "fetal pole?" in it. He wants me to come back in two weeks for another US "to try to better estimate a date and BE SURE EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT." I looked at the US and there is definitely a sack with something in it.
What wouldn't be alright? Did he suspect something was wrong and didn't want to tell me until he had a better idea of what was happening? A blighted ovum would have self-declared by now, wouldn't it? Am I so small because my "fetal pole" stopped growing? and I begin to rapidly spiral downward from there.
I was supposed to stop by the lab for my bloodwork, but missed the turn and traffic was horrible so I went on and did the rest of my errands and went home. I'll go to the lab Monday afternoon, and hopefully I'll have good, strong numbers.
Rational Tracy says - You wouldn't still have all the symptoms of pregnancy if the baby has died. Being hormonal (and sometimes, yes, irrational) is normal. If you're only 5 weeks along, you're only 5 weeks along and your baby will be born mid/late-March instead of late-Feb. Babies are tiny at 5 weeks and they get bigger over time not overnight.
Neurotic Tracy says - something is wrong. something is very wrong
I guess I'll feel better once I see a heartbeat. I wish the dr. had been booked until mid-August so we could know from the start what's what.
If you've made it this far, you're a trooper! Thanks for reading my silly worries.
I'll just have to wait patiently and trust that everything will be fine and will work out just as it should, when it should. (I'll need to repeat this to myself often, I think.)
I can't remember when AF was in May. DH thinks it was late in the month. I'm still nursing Henry very frequently so I know this can mess up my ovulation schedule.
No AF in June at all. BFP on July 1. It was very bright very quickly.
For the past 2 weeks I've been exhausted, emotional, very queasy, my breasts are very tender, and I've had lower abdominal achiness. I'm not really pooching out (I did have a baby just a year ago.
), but I am thicker around the midsection in general. These are all good sticky baby signs I think?I made the appt for my first visit thinking I was 6-8 weeks along. The dr. did a transvag US to estimate a date and said - quite surprised - "oh, you're pretty small, probably only 5 weeks along." I don't know if he meant 5 weeks as in the baby is 3 weeks along plus the 2 weeks they count for AF or 5 weeks as in the baby is actually 5 weeks along.
He saw a well defined sack and said he thought he saw a "fetal pole?" in it. He wants me to come back in two weeks for another US "to try to better estimate a date and BE SURE EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT." I looked at the US and there is definitely a sack with something in it.
What wouldn't be alright? Did he suspect something was wrong and didn't want to tell me until he had a better idea of what was happening? A blighted ovum would have self-declared by now, wouldn't it? Am I so small because my "fetal pole" stopped growing? and I begin to rapidly spiral downward from there.
I was supposed to stop by the lab for my bloodwork, but missed the turn and traffic was horrible so I went on and did the rest of my errands and went home. I'll go to the lab Monday afternoon, and hopefully I'll have good, strong numbers.
Rational Tracy says - You wouldn't still have all the symptoms of pregnancy if the baby has died. Being hormonal (and sometimes, yes, irrational) is normal. If you're only 5 weeks along, you're only 5 weeks along and your baby will be born mid/late-March instead of late-Feb. Babies are tiny at 5 weeks and they get bigger over time not overnight.
Neurotic Tracy says - something is wrong. something is very wrong
I guess I'll feel better once I see a heartbeat. I wish the dr. had been booked until mid-August so we could know from the start what's what.
If you've made it this far, you're a trooper! Thanks for reading my silly worries.
I'll just have to wait patiently and trust that everything will be fine and will work out just as it should, when it should. (I'll need to repeat this to myself often, I think.)
.... but in cases like these you really need to try and relax... another thing not easy to do!
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