well this week actuarly
DS1 was a terror on saturday and really got on my nerves by NOT listening ot me and manageing to lose a shoe after being told a million times to put em away.
then he was sick, then DD was sick i was not in best of moods that day and it jsut topped it off. sunday was fine
monday was crap cos id had littel sleep and was super grouchy adn having niggls all day
tueaday was ok
wednesday wascack DS2 was sick and DH had to come home again as i didnt want to take a puking kid to my MW apointment, babe is fine 3/5ths head down,and in the right position, was getting niggly pains all day from the moment i got to Drs surgery and i just wanted to walk walk walk. so i did.
went to bed, took forever to get comphy adn woke every 2 hours or so to move and woke at 4am with back ache, niggly pains, the odd strong contraction, bloody annoying, right now DH is gone to work im gettin pains off and on my back is killing me and im a so so so grouchy i keep yelling at the kids to shut up, every little thing is driving me batty, they started bickering the instant they got up, the wont leave each other alone, they keep banging into me. i have had to keep DS2 and DD off nursery today cos DS2 was sick yesterday so im gonna be stuck at home ith 2 kids having pains alone till 3pm(tis 7.30 at the mo) with no way of getting anywhere should i need to as my da is taking my bus ticket and my DS1 to school goingback to his for an important call.
also im panicing about the birth, not labour its self but after, we have exactly £13 till saturday and an extra £5 in the bank i cant get to so we have JUST enough for a taxi trip to hossy adn no more so if i have this baby toniht i cant get home!!!! the hospital wont let you leave anyway but either in a car or a taxi and i dont know anyone who drives who can pick me up. we also need stuff for us like bread adn milk and i cant even buy that incase i need the money for a hossy trip, then i worry about going to hossy to find im NOT in labour and i have wasted money we cant afford to waste. im totaly stressing and tis NOT good. i can hardly afford DS1 bus fair to school today or tomorrow(£1.60) im fecked off, im sick of people asking me "you not had that baby yet" while i have a huge round bump sticking out a mile. im mad at everyone right now and all i want is a warm bath but i cnat dothat cos i have 2 kids with me ad cant leave em alone for a second.
i hate not knowing if this is "it" or if its "false" labour again for the 5th time!!!!
oh im jsut monaing im sorry
i have no one else to talk to!!! no friends to help me out at all, no family near enought to help me out, DH gone to work and is 45 mins away so im stuffed even if i go into full labour cos id still have to get to hospital under my own power WITH 2 of my kids!!!
Kiz
DS1 was a terror on saturday and really got on my nerves by NOT listening ot me and manageing to lose a shoe after being told a million times to put em away.
then he was sick, then DD was sick i was not in best of moods that day and it jsut topped it off. sunday was fine
monday was crap cos id had littel sleep and was super grouchy adn having niggls all day
tueaday was ok
wednesday wascack DS2 was sick and DH had to come home again as i didnt want to take a puking kid to my MW apointment, babe is fine 3/5ths head down,and in the right position, was getting niggly pains all day from the moment i got to Drs surgery and i just wanted to walk walk walk. so i did.
went to bed, took forever to get comphy adn woke every 2 hours or so to move and woke at 4am with back ache, niggly pains, the odd strong contraction, bloody annoying, right now DH is gone to work im gettin pains off and on my back is killing me and im a so so so grouchy i keep yelling at the kids to shut up, every little thing is driving me batty, they started bickering the instant they got up, the wont leave each other alone, they keep banging into me. i have had to keep DS2 and DD off nursery today cos DS2 was sick yesterday so im gonna be stuck at home ith 2 kids having pains alone till 3pm(tis 7.30 at the mo) with no way of getting anywhere should i need to as my da is taking my bus ticket and my DS1 to school goingback to his for an important call.
also im panicing about the birth, not labour its self but after, we have exactly £13 till saturday and an extra £5 in the bank i cant get to so we have JUST enough for a taxi trip to hossy adn no more so if i have this baby toniht i cant get home!!!! the hospital wont let you leave anyway but either in a car or a taxi and i dont know anyone who drives who can pick me up. we also need stuff for us like bread adn milk and i cant even buy that incase i need the money for a hossy trip, then i worry about going to hossy to find im NOT in labour and i have wasted money we cant afford to waste. im totaly stressing and tis NOT good. i can hardly afford DS1 bus fair to school today or tomorrow(£1.60) im fecked off, im sick of people asking me "you not had that baby yet" while i have a huge round bump sticking out a mile. im mad at everyone right now and all i want is a warm bath but i cnat dothat cos i have 2 kids with me ad cant leave em alone for a second.
i hate not knowing if this is "it" or if its "false" labour again for the 5th time!!!!
oh im jsut monaing im sorry
i have no one else to talk to!!! no friends to help me out at all, no family near enought to help me out, DH gone to work and is 45 mins away so im stuffed even if i go into full labour cos id still have to get to hospital under my own power WITH 2 of my kids!!!
Kiz
. I'm due one day after you. Sending you good labor vibes! 
Were your other children early? I'm sure that looking after your children, worrying about money, and being 9 months pregnant don't mix well! I hope you can find some time to relax. As I say to my son, "Let me give you big hugs!" Mia
