Laboring

[First Time Mama]

I started having ctx last night at about 10:30, starting at 6 to 7 minutes apart. They stayed all night, getting closer together and stronger. I tried to rest in bed, but didn't get a lot of sleep. I just slept shortly now. Have been in contact with my midwives, but they aren't in attendance yet. I think they are maybe about 5 minutes apart now, but I haven't timed in a while. Wish me luck, and I hope I'm holding my little baby by tonight.

[jazzybaby9]

Good luck and happy labor vibes!!! You'll be holdin' your babe soon enough!

[stefka]

Lots of peaceful labor vibes headed your way. C'mon out, baby!!!

[*jeanine*]

peace and strength to you!

[IntuitiveJamie]

I hope a beautiful birth experience is yours today!

[stacyg]

[sunshine's mama]

blessings to you and your new babe.....

[Hazelnut]

oooh good luck!!!

[First Time Mama]

Update

The contractions spaced out for a while, I took a bath and laid down for 45 minutes or so to try to get more rest. I 'm really uncomfortable laying down during a contraction though. They're getting harder for me to work through, I really have to breathe, and vocalize a little. I'm starting to feel like I really might want my midwives here, or at least have one of them come by to check. But I don't want to call them to early, and I don't know if maybe I'm just overreacting to early labor? I also don't want to get discouraging news if they come check me and I haven't made much progress. I think I might talk with DH once he wakes up from his nap and we'll decide. I'm also going to go eat something.

[lactivist]

Wishing you a beautiful peaceful birth.
Wendi

[beautiful_mama]

Hoping this is it and it goes well and quickly

labor vibes to you~*~*~*~*~*~*~

[mighty-mama]

Wishing you.. steady, strong, productive contractions... I'm hoping you are on your way to holding your little babymoon..

Best of luck.

[SweetTexasgal]

Sending you peaceful labor vibes

[Plaid Leopard]

[jmhammond]

update?

[*jeanine*]

thinking of you... hoping you're holding your little one.

[mamas2atti]

Peaceful and productive labor vibes to you~~~~

[First Time Mama]

Update: My Son is Here

This is the first time I have been able to post. I kept laboring all day into the evening, my midwives came at about 6:00 pm and I was 8 cm. I got into the tub and labored there for several hours. I got to nine cm, and my water still hadn't broken, and I agreed to let them break it, because we thought the baby would come out shortly once the water broke. He didn't. I started some pushing at 9 cm, my midwives tried to manually dialate my cervix the rest of the way and I pushed and pushed and pushed. I think all together I pushed for 3 or four hours. A lot on hands and knees, and on the toilet. Also in the tub, on my back (which I hated, but did at my midwives suggestion. On my side. On the stairs. I tried pushing in every way we could think of and I tried not pushing. After several hours of pushing as hard as I could and not moving him down at all, I decided to transfer. At that point I was thinking maybe in the hospital they would use a vacuum or forceps to pull him out.
Well, when we got to the hospital it all ended with a cesarean. I am heartbroken and emotionally devastated that I had to have surgery to have a baby. I had never, ever considered that happening to me. I have dreamed of my peaceful,calm, beautiful homebirth for years and that is what I fully expected to get. The last thing I wanted was a c- section. I love my son so much, and at the same time I am hurting so bad over the way he came into the world. I had so much faith in birth and trust that my body knew what to do, and now that is dashed, and I feel my body failed me. The transfer experience was so horrible as well. We got a really rude doctor who treated us disrespectfully and the labor nurse was also horrible. I was in so much pain waiting for my c section, that was the worst part of the entire labor and birth, being in the hospital. The hour in recovery waiting to see my baby was also so hard. We stayed 2 days and then the first week and a half to 2 weeks at home was hard, as we struggled with breastfeeding. I had to get help from a lactation consultant and because he lost quite a bit of weight I had to supplement for a few days with formula and give him bottles of expressed milk with formula. I am happy to report that now breastfeeding is going much better, and he has gained a lot. Nothing about my experience of motherhood was as I thought it was going to be. From the birth to breastfeeding and even the days at home with a new baby.

[Plaid Leopard]

First of all, congratulations on the birth of your son!

I'm sorry things didn't go as planned. Do you have someone IRL you can talk about your feelings with? and f course come here and "process" as much as you need to.
It's certainly ok to grieve the loss of your dream birth, but remember that that is only one part of motherhood. The love you have for your son - every time you put him to your breast, cradle him in your arms, sing to him, talk to him and smile at him will make up for the rough beginning a million times over.

Hugs to you!

[mighty-mama]

Congratulations on your birth..

I'm so sorry, it didn't go as you envisioned. My first birth was very similiar and I too, pushed for 3hrs, only to have a c/s. I never thought that would happen, especially since I was pushing.

Please allow yourself time to grieve the loss of the optimal birth. You did everything you could for your little one, and your body gave him a natural labor as long as possible.

You are amazing for pushing so hard.. Be gentle with yourself, and thanks for sharing.