sad and confused

[sahmof2girls]

Well i thought i would post here and just get some things off my chest. I started having ppd about a yr after my first was born. And after my 2nd it hit me full force 2 weeks after she was born. I am mostly a chronic worrier. A huge "what if" kind of person. My anxiety comes out physically. numbness, dizziness, blurred vision.etc..... And i freak out that i have some horrible disease that is going to make me not be able to be a mother. I was in an abusive marriage and i started drinking because it was the only time that i would feel "normal". That was like 3 1/2 yrs ago. I left my hubby and still drank and i started taking pain pills also. I didn't do it around the girls but i knew if i didn't stop that it would all blend into one big mess. I checked myself into the hospital for a week, then after that did 4 days a week therapy outpatient. I quit drinking and using and became so much more healthierphysically and mentally. I have been going through my divorce for almost 2 yrs now. Leaving my husband was the best thing to do but he continues to make me feel useless and is trying to take the girls away. It has been one h*** of a ride. I started dating about a yr ago. and i met the most wonderful man. He is always nice, loving , caring, and thoughtful. I ended up getting pregnant in the beg of May and we are both very happy about it now. Now i am having anxiety and feeling very depressed. I am super happy with my dp and my girls, but i have this feeling of dread always and it completley interupts my days and now my nights. I started taking zoloft because i weighed out my options and that seemed like the right thing to do for me and my family. But it does not seem to be getting better it seems to be getting worse. If you made it this far thanks and i hope that maybe someone out here hassome words of encouragement. THANKS MAMMA"S!

[mom0810]

Hi,

I'm so happy things are looking up, and congratulations on your pregnancy!

Are you in therapy at all? That would be my first suggestion. Also, how long have you been on the zoloft? It takes sometimes as long as 6 weeks to really start working. How is your diet? Are you getting any sunlight and exercise? Those can really help, too.

I don't have any other suggestions, but I did want to offer support. You will find many moms here who are going through tough times and we all support one another.