first off this is hard for me to write as everythngi planned went totaly wrong adn im still a bit sad about it.
also all times are in UK time.
Friday i started feeling funny aroun 3am so got up, had a few pains and the baby was moving very much sort of jumpy, told DH i was starting labour at 6 am and he had to stay home from work. it stoped!!!
i still felt funny all day, heavly sore adn on edge, we even went out to doshopping to try to get things going. nothing happened
chilled out saturday and sunday nothing happened.
9.30pm sunday (16th) i was pacing room, on all 4's rocking etc etc and i sat down on sofa adn had a funny feeling in my hips/legs/back and felt urge to go to loo, sat on loo adn got the most horrendous pain up my back a sort of rippling pain, i yelled for DH adn he came and helped me to living room where he layed out a sheet for me i got on all four rocking and he put my TENS machine on for me which helped and he called my da who came over as soon as he could, all this time im humming very loudly freakingnout at the pain!!.
gets in taxi gets to local Midwifery Led Unit. go to a room(same room i had my DS2 in) give Gas and Air for the pain and checked in. then examined, i was 3cm not a labouring cervix, MW gives me a sweep(strips the membrains) that really hurt glad i had my gas!! she says your not in labour but we will keep you here for a bit to see how you go cos we dont know what that back pain was all about an with it being number 4 it could go fast once we get going.
i walk around lots, bounce on a ball, etc etc. around 11.30 i felt a "pop" and a squoosh so DH told MW who said pop to loo in cse it was me weeing, then she checked me again and confirmed my waters had gone and she was a little concerned as they were blood stained with old blood so the funny feeling on friday(heavly baby movemetnt etc) could have been a bleed from placenta. she said everthing was OK but i had to stay and be monitored for a bit and had to keep moving keep moving, around 12.30 she examined me again to find i was not dialating at all, contractions were 3-4 mins lasting between 30-55 seconds, doing nothing. when she examined me she saw clots in the waters taht were still coming out. it was decided i would be transfered to the local consultant unit by ambulance. i agreed as it was best for baby (who was totaly happy Heart reat in the 145s the whole time) got transfered and examined at 2am, NO CHANGE still 3-4 contractions not getting any stronger. saw by 2 Drs and they said monitor for 4 hours and the we will see. MW decided after a while that things were not looking good, contractions not doing ANYTHING at all. ti all gets a bit hazy now
i was started on a Pit drip and was ok to start with but as she turned it up things got quite painfull quite fast. i managed till around 9am and started asking for otehr pain reliefe options. i was examined again at 9.30 NO CHANGE AT ALL
i was examined at 10am by round Dr who scanned me to find out where my placenta was because of the blood in the waters.(was high posteriour) by this time i was freaking out as they said 4 more hours i was crying almost hysterical. DH was so worried too. his face. i refused diamorphine as i didnt want to feel sick etc. i thought it oiver and hated the fact that i was thinking it and beating my self up adn thinking my god i cant do it i always swore i would never ever do it but i felt i had no choice i was close to begging for a c section.
i had a epidural!!! i am STILL mad at myself for it!! i was worried that it was jsut another step on the road of intervention adn that id end up cut anyway then thougth i cant take 4 more hours and have to have it anyway. so i took it.
had that placed at 10.40am
i wanted my mom (she lives 180 miles away) i sent DH to tellher what was happening as i had not even told her i was in labour he was on phone to her at 11.16. the epi startes to work and i start losing feelingin my belly and upper legs, i start feeling a "pushy" feeling Mw says oh good and walks out!!
i get another contaction and i can feel ALL the pain in my neather reagions nd there only, im sucking the gas for dear life when shouting for help cos i couldnt find my buzzer.
MW comes in as i am pushing and lets me get on with it and when it ends she says im gonna check you now but if your not ready you r going to have to not push adn use your gas. she checks
i have a rim of cervix, im ready, i can go, i ask if i can boost my epi and she say of course, i boost it
i push, i dont want to push it hurts too much, it burns, i can feel ALL the pain in my bottom, my 'Rhoids hurt, im scared, wheres DH?
i cant help but push,
DH comes in and looks a bit like whow whats happeneing and dives straight in holding my hand and coaching me
i push again, i dont want to it hurts, i do tho,
push push push
for 9 agonising, painfull excrusiating exhausting mins.
her head coming now, my clit hurts, its gonna rip, i grab it adn push my clit down dont ask why but if felt like the right thing to do. her heads out, she had a hand up by her face,
im told to push on next pain,
there is no more pains, i feel pressure in my now numb belly adn push push push, shes out shes born shes here, the pain stops.
she is given straight to me, she doest cry but she is looking at me, she is breathing, shes going pink, DH cuts cord, MW takes her for a sec and drys her off i lift up my t-shirt and shes put on me skin to skin adn covered in warm towels and i offer her to boob, she not interested so i go to turn her over to other side, shes pooped all over me!! i get DH to clean up the worst of it and swap her over, she latches on like a pro adn stays there for an hour!!. i have the shot for the placenta and its over.
my legs are numb, i feel stupid now but MW says that the Epi can sometimes kick you over the hump when labour is not progressing.
i have some tea and toast, baby is still feeding, she is taken and weighed
8lb 2oz, the same as DS2
DH takes her and dresses her, i get my Epi out i get a bed bath, tis really freakiy having some strange person washing your neathers but i could hardly move. i get taken to ward, im supposed to be transfered back to my midwife unit but they are waitin gon blood work for us and my legs are still not right so i have to wait. its about 1pm by now. DH gets me a sandwitch, i finaly find out i cant transfer so i say thers no point ill stay here to night and go home tomorrow instead of transfering back.
that was Monday 17th.
it was a long hard scary emotional and physicaly draining time. im OK now physicaly but emotionaly im nottoo sure. i have a big hang up abotu the Epidural and i always said i would never ever have one and i feel i wimped out.
here are some pics of baby these were taken mear moments after birth
http://i86.photobucket.com/albums/k8...ssphone203.jpg
http://i86.photobucket.com/albums/k8...ssphone204.jpg
My 2 princesses
http://i86.photobucket.com/albums/k8...ssphone220.jpg
i dont have any of my boys with the baby on the PC yet they are on our other phone lol
anyway that my story and i hope you like it
Kiz
also all times are in UK time.
Friday i started feeling funny aroun 3am so got up, had a few pains and the baby was moving very much sort of jumpy, told DH i was starting labour at 6 am and he had to stay home from work. it stoped!!!
i still felt funny all day, heavly sore adn on edge, we even went out to doshopping to try to get things going. nothing happened
chilled out saturday and sunday nothing happened.
9.30pm sunday (16th) i was pacing room, on all 4's rocking etc etc and i sat down on sofa adn had a funny feeling in my hips/legs/back and felt urge to go to loo, sat on loo adn got the most horrendous pain up my back a sort of rippling pain, i yelled for DH adn he came and helped me to living room where he layed out a sheet for me i got on all four rocking and he put my TENS machine on for me which helped and he called my da who came over as soon as he could, all this time im humming very loudly freakingnout at the pain!!.
gets in taxi gets to local Midwifery Led Unit. go to a room(same room i had my DS2 in) give Gas and Air for the pain and checked in. then examined, i was 3cm not a labouring cervix, MW gives me a sweep(strips the membrains) that really hurt glad i had my gas!! she says your not in labour but we will keep you here for a bit to see how you go cos we dont know what that back pain was all about an with it being number 4 it could go fast once we get going.
i walk around lots, bounce on a ball, etc etc. around 11.30 i felt a "pop" and a squoosh so DH told MW who said pop to loo in cse it was me weeing, then she checked me again and confirmed my waters had gone and she was a little concerned as they were blood stained with old blood so the funny feeling on friday(heavly baby movemetnt etc) could have been a bleed from placenta. she said everthing was OK but i had to stay and be monitored for a bit and had to keep moving keep moving, around 12.30 she examined me again to find i was not dialating at all, contractions were 3-4 mins lasting between 30-55 seconds, doing nothing. when she examined me she saw clots in the waters taht were still coming out. it was decided i would be transfered to the local consultant unit by ambulance. i agreed as it was best for baby (who was totaly happy Heart reat in the 145s the whole time) got transfered and examined at 2am, NO CHANGE still 3-4 contractions not getting any stronger. saw by 2 Drs and they said monitor for 4 hours and the we will see. MW decided after a while that things were not looking good, contractions not doing ANYTHING at all. ti all gets a bit hazy now
i was started on a Pit drip and was ok to start with but as she turned it up things got quite painfull quite fast. i managed till around 9am and started asking for otehr pain reliefe options. i was examined again at 9.30 NO CHANGE AT ALL
i was examined at 10am by round Dr who scanned me to find out where my placenta was because of the blood in the waters.(was high posteriour) by this time i was freaking out as they said 4 more hours i was crying almost hysterical. DH was so worried too. his face. i refused diamorphine as i didnt want to feel sick etc. i thought it oiver and hated the fact that i was thinking it and beating my self up adn thinking my god i cant do it i always swore i would never ever do it but i felt i had no choice i was close to begging for a c section.
i had a epidural!!! i am STILL mad at myself for it!! i was worried that it was jsut another step on the road of intervention adn that id end up cut anyway then thougth i cant take 4 more hours and have to have it anyway. so i took it.
had that placed at 10.40am
i wanted my mom (she lives 180 miles away) i sent DH to tellher what was happening as i had not even told her i was in labour he was on phone to her at 11.16. the epi startes to work and i start losing feelingin my belly and upper legs, i start feeling a "pushy" feeling Mw says oh good and walks out!!
i get another contaction and i can feel ALL the pain in my neather reagions nd there only, im sucking the gas for dear life when shouting for help cos i couldnt find my buzzer.
MW comes in as i am pushing and lets me get on with it and when it ends she says im gonna check you now but if your not ready you r going to have to not push adn use your gas. she checks
i have a rim of cervix, im ready, i can go, i ask if i can boost my epi and she say of course, i boost it
i push, i dont want to push it hurts too much, it burns, i can feel ALL the pain in my bottom, my 'Rhoids hurt, im scared, wheres DH?
i cant help but push,
DH comes in and looks a bit like whow whats happeneing and dives straight in holding my hand and coaching me
i push again, i dont want to it hurts, i do tho,
push push push
for 9 agonising, painfull excrusiating exhausting mins.
her head coming now, my clit hurts, its gonna rip, i grab it adn push my clit down dont ask why but if felt like the right thing to do. her heads out, she had a hand up by her face,
im told to push on next pain,
there is no more pains, i feel pressure in my now numb belly adn push push push, shes out shes born shes here, the pain stops.
she is given straight to me, she doest cry but she is looking at me, she is breathing, shes going pink, DH cuts cord, MW takes her for a sec and drys her off i lift up my t-shirt and shes put on me skin to skin adn covered in warm towels and i offer her to boob, she not interested so i go to turn her over to other side, shes pooped all over me!! i get DH to clean up the worst of it and swap her over, she latches on like a pro adn stays there for an hour!!. i have the shot for the placenta and its over.
my legs are numb, i feel stupid now but MW says that the Epi can sometimes kick you over the hump when labour is not progressing.
i have some tea and toast, baby is still feeding, she is taken and weighed
8lb 2oz, the same as DS2
DH takes her and dresses her, i get my Epi out i get a bed bath, tis really freakiy having some strange person washing your neathers but i could hardly move. i get taken to ward, im supposed to be transfered back to my midwife unit but they are waitin gon blood work for us and my legs are still not right so i have to wait. its about 1pm by now. DH gets me a sandwitch, i finaly find out i cant transfer so i say thers no point ill stay here to night and go home tomorrow instead of transfering back.
that was Monday 17th.
it was a long hard scary emotional and physicaly draining time. im OK now physicaly but emotionaly im nottoo sure. i have a big hang up abotu the Epidural and i always said i would never ever have one and i feel i wimped out.
here are some pics of baby these were taken mear moments after birth
http://i86.photobucket.com/albums/k8...ssphone203.jpg
http://i86.photobucket.com/albums/k8...ssphone204.jpg
My 2 princesses
http://i86.photobucket.com/albums/k8...ssphone220.jpg
i dont have any of my boys with the baby on the PC yet they are on our other phone lol
anyway that my story and i hope you like it
Kiz
