That has slacked off, mainly due to the fact that all of my attention was focused on another small business I created. It took ALOT of blood, sweat, and tears (literally....I waitressed 4-5 nights a week and went to work after being a mommy all day) but eventually I started to turn a small profit and after a year of waitressing to support it, I could quit. My DH and family were very supportive and I am blessed to have a small support network.
A few months ago I was in negotiations to sell my business and although it wasn't going to make me rich, it felt awesome to have created something that someone was actually willing to pay me for. But....something happened and the deal fell through....I was upset for awhile, but truly believe good things come to those who wait. And now I have am in negotiations for some new things and know if I had sold, I wouldn't be in the position I am right now.
I am sorry I am so long winded, but you can do anything you set your mind too! Nothing worth having happens overnight. I know you have your heart set on becoming a lawyer, but sometime if your too focused on that one prize, you miss a hundred other opportunities. For example, could you investigate possibly interning at a non-profit legal org? That would give you hands on training and get you out of the house.
Network.....talk to friends, family, us, your local chamber of commerce, local law offices, your school....you never know what you'll find unless you ask....do your homeowrk and I swear it pays off.
You are not a bad mom....from what I've read about you, you are a doting loving momma that is feeling normal feelings, but doesn't have an outlet. All of us have been there, and have the T-shirt in one way or another.
You can do it! You've set your goal to be a lawyer..now you just need to be alittle more creative in your path to becoming one.