Update
Thanks guys!! This board is full of so many awesome women!!

My midwife called me back this morning, and she wasn't apologetic

: but she did offer a couple of names. One we're not okay with, one we are. I told her I will feel comfortable doing this if it's the one I like. She said it shouldn't be a problem. I feel comforted knowing that if this pregnancy goes overdue and I deliver while she's on vacation, she will also have to feel the effects. She works often with this other woman so she'll have to pay her the fee and will thus feel her "blooper" also. I do thankfully trust this other woman. We're setting up an appt to meet with her ahead of time.
I'm getting so emotionally exhausted. My mom keeps calling to "keep tabs" on me, like I'll just drop over in violent labor.

Then when I was talking with my midwife, she was like, "I don't think you'll still be pregnant. I think you'll have your baby by then." But, see, we thought I'd have already had him by now. And I haven't. I can't take anymore of this "you're going to go any day now" drama. Don't get me wrong - I would give anything for it to be true - but every morning I wake up still pregnant, I lose a little more faith that it will be soon. Seriously, I honestly think I'm starting to border depressed.

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Thank you so much for your feedback, everyone. I don't know that I'm brave enough to try the castor oil......it seems I'm in the bathroom enough already.....
