Hugs!
Rebecca, you are doing the right thing. I wish I could reach through the computer and hug you, or bring you to this safe place where I now am that is free of fear and pain. I went through abuse with a partner a long time ago, before I had kids and I know how hard it is to get out. To this day, I still think of what it would have been like if I'd had children at that time. I think it has to be one of the hardest things any woman will ever deal with. I almost died getting out of it, but I would die before I would let anyone hurt my children (or let them see a man hurting me).

It will seem impossible at times, it will seem easier to stay at times, it will seem hopeless and terrifying and like you cannot escape at times. You can. You will. Find a way, any way. You will not believe the weight that is lifted once you are free. Your whole life will change. It will get so much better. One day you will look back and know you did the right thing no matter how hard it is at this moment.
Stay strong. I think you will find support on here, or probably anywhere on mothering.com you choose to post. There are a great bunch of mammas on here, many who can probably relate or at least understand what you are going through.
Please stay safe.



Kathy.