just posting a quick update...(and i just copy and pasted from the ppd forum, so i don't have to type it all out again )
So Sat i called a crisis line hoping to connect with some resources and got the # for public health and that they did ppd screening. i called the next day and spilled my guts to, including that i had thoughts of harming my toddler. They put me in contact with mental health who proceeded to give me more phone #'s (all i really wanted was the name of a doc with some experience with ppd) and i kinda broke down crying. anyway next thing you know cps is at the door.
Now apparently they were only there to assess the safety of the kids and to offer resources, but I was freaked! We co-sleep, non vax, no wbv etc and we just moved across the country, I've been depressed so you can only imagine what the house looked like.
I did find a doctor who finally got it and prescribed medication. I am hoping to feel better in a couple of weeks.
So everything is fine, except i had a bit of a reaction to the meds she gave me, so just working out the kinks now.
We are moving back east permanently, and that has already made me feel better.
So, onward and upward.
Thanks for all the kind words and support girls!
Now off to check out our new forum!