I have been a real b*tch for the last week or so, and I'm starting to feel pretty bad about it, at least as far as my DD is concerned.
She has been ON all the time. Climbing on me, touching, clinging, poking, etc. All touch, all the time..... and all kinds of touch. Ultra-affectionate AND temper-driven touch AND roughhousing. I don't know if this is driven by the upcoming new one or what, but I just want to be left ALONE. She seems to have a particular penchant for digging around/rubbing on/LICKING my armpits, of all things, which has just been driving me utterly batty.
She normally would be happy to play on her own for a couple of hours per day (not all at once, but still), but the last week or so it's been perpetual 'mommy, mommy, mommy, MOOOOOMMMMMY!!!'
We still cosleep, and even asleep she's been extra-touchy.... laying all over me, putting her face right in mine, the aforementioned armpit thing, etc.
All night long.
I've gotten snappish and generally unpleasant. I know it's not her fault, and I know the way I'm reacting is making things worse. I've been fighting middle-of-the-night insomnia too, so I'm also tired in addition to cranky.
What's ridiculous is that I'm craving adult touch. DH has been doing the same thing he did last pregnancy, getting more and more distant the closer we get to the end. Any physical affection from him, I literally have to ASK for. And, well, it loses something when you have to ask for it. *snort*
We haven't been 'intimate' in at least a couple 2-3 months.
He's done NOTHING from the list of things that need to be done before the baby gets here. The only thing he does house-wise is the dishes, sometimes. Anything else is apparently my terrain, including picking up HIS dirty effin' socks and laundry. Any time he does take on some care time of DD so I can get work done (oh yeah, I'm also responsible for 100% of the breadwinning, as a WAHM, he's a college student), he acts like he's doing me some sort of big FAVOR.
So yeah. Cranky.
Normally DD and I have a kind of groove we're in (and DH is always at least kind of like this), so it's not so bad. But right now, me wanting/needing something different AND being a real grump about it has thrown everyone off in a big way.
My MW has suggested calcium to counteract both the cranky and the insomnia, so maybe that'll help me get back to being a bit more tolerant towards my poor DD. I'm just going to ignore DH. *laugh*
I do have two massages to look forward to next week. I swear I almost kissed Robert (a friend of mine who is a RMT) on Wednesday when he said that he wanted to give me a free session before the baby's born as a gift. And another RMT female friend is going to do some bodywork on my legs/hips at another point.
Hopefully that'll help with my needing some non-kid touch.
/rant
Just had to let some of that out....
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She has been ON all the time. Climbing on me, touching, clinging, poking, etc. All touch, all the time..... and all kinds of touch. Ultra-affectionate AND temper-driven touch AND roughhousing. I don't know if this is driven by the upcoming new one or what, but I just want to be left ALONE. She seems to have a particular penchant for digging around/rubbing on/LICKING my armpits, of all things, which has just been driving me utterly batty.
She normally would be happy to play on her own for a couple of hours per day (not all at once, but still), but the last week or so it's been perpetual 'mommy, mommy, mommy, MOOOOOMMMMMY!!!'
We still cosleep, and even asleep she's been extra-touchy.... laying all over me, putting her face right in mine, the aforementioned armpit thing, etc.
All night long.
I've gotten snappish and generally unpleasant. I know it's not her fault, and I know the way I'm reacting is making things worse. I've been fighting middle-of-the-night insomnia too, so I'm also tired in addition to cranky.
What's ridiculous is that I'm craving adult touch. DH has been doing the same thing he did last pregnancy, getting more and more distant the closer we get to the end. Any physical affection from him, I literally have to ASK for. And, well, it loses something when you have to ask for it. *snort*
We haven't been 'intimate' in at least a couple 2-3 months.
He's done NOTHING from the list of things that need to be done before the baby gets here. The only thing he does house-wise is the dishes, sometimes. Anything else is apparently my terrain, including picking up HIS dirty effin' socks and laundry. Any time he does take on some care time of DD so I can get work done (oh yeah, I'm also responsible for 100% of the breadwinning, as a WAHM, he's a college student), he acts like he's doing me some sort of big FAVOR.
So yeah. Cranky.
Normally DD and I have a kind of groove we're in (and DH is always at least kind of like this), so it's not so bad. But right now, me wanting/needing something different AND being a real grump about it has thrown everyone off in a big way.
My MW has suggested calcium to counteract both the cranky and the insomnia, so maybe that'll help me get back to being a bit more tolerant towards my poor DD. I'm just going to ignore DH. *laugh*
I do have two massages to look forward to next week. I swear I almost kissed Robert (a friend of mine who is a RMT) on Wednesday when he said that he wanted to give me a free session before the baby's born as a gift. And another RMT female friend is going to do some bodywork on my legs/hips at another point.
Hopefully that'll help with my needing some non-kid touch.
/rant
Just had to let some of that out....
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for you.
