i am so glad others understand what i am going through
hi moms- i am glad to see i am not the only one suffering with this pinworm thing- well, i am not putting that correctly because i wouldn't wish this on my enemies- i just mean i am so glad there is somewhere i can read and vent discreetly about what is going on with us !- so to get on with it, i just feel so disgusted right now- at night i feel like i have things crawling all over me just like the mom said about "feeling like the spider is on you"- you see, our 5 yr old daughter woke up crying for 3 nights about intense itching (but no mentions during the day- i inspected during the day and saw no rash and didn't have any idea what the trouble could be)-
until i said to my husband on the 3rd night of upset "well let's take a look right now and try to see what she is talking about"- what i saw has made me so ill and so frightened and so intensely worried and i don't know how to get over it!!- i saw many many worms going in and out of her anus and in and out of her vagina- i was in a state of absolute shock and was so upset- it was inconceivable to me that this could ever happen to me and my family- i was stunned- totally afraid -i sound naive i am sure- but it is just unbelievable what that pinworm scene looked like and it is the most horrifc thing i have ever seen- i am sorry for the graphics but i am wondering: has anyone seen this ?- anyhow, so i ran to the computer (this was all at midnight) and read all about it including taking sticky tape samples to your doctor- the next morning we rushed her to the doctor and the doctor happened to have a job shadow of all days to have one- (a young md nearly finished her training)-the doctor asked "would you mind if she consulted first and i then i will come in after to read her notes and follow through?" - i was like "oh great i am already so upset and embarrassed about this, now 2 physicians (instead of just 1) have to know our story"- but i said "ok" anyway- well the new doctor in training was so repulsed by my "reason for visit" and if you had seen the look of horror on her face from my little stick tape in a baggy... anyhow and she told me "that is very very dirty, you should not touch, go wash your hands, oh my, this is very dirty" etc etc and then asked my daugher if her nose was itchy and then she inspected her hair and scalp! -(i guess looking for lice to see how filthy of a family we really were??? and the nose question i have no idea what that was all about but now i feel like i have an itchy nose all the time!) -anyhow, i was feeling really shameful and even more upset at this point- finally the real doctor came in and said "don't worry it is very common -especially in the slums of iran where i come from, where people's hygeine is very poor- i had it as a young child myself back in iran" he said- i was briefly comforted by his admission but mostly embarrassed that i heard the words "poor hygeine"- aaaaaaaaaah! i am still so upset by all this everybody!! anyhow, he gave us vermox and my husband went later in the day with our 2 older boys (7 yr old twins)- anyhow, i could not help but see what was going on again with my daughter and the 2 boys that night- my husband was saying "let the medicine do the work- don't worry about it- there is no need to do that" blah blah blah- but i COULD NOT HELP MYSELF! i was just so horrified by what i saw the night before and so scared and shocked and worried and upset etc etc- well, this time i saw probably 50 worms going absolutely insane, looking a little less healthy (they were smaller and more curled up) but wriggling like mad in a terrible frenzy all around her anus and vagina- i had read on the internet that "after you take the meds, you may see them in the feces and not to worry, the pinworms are just exiting the body" but i was SHOCKED by the sheer number of them- has anyone else ever seen this many??? i could not find a single post that talked about how many one can see etc- to continue, i took my sticky tape again and taped them all up because i couldn't bear to see them on her- our 2 boys were fine by the way, they both had the pinworms too but just 1 or 2 could be seen at night but 1 of our son's did bed wet for several days last week and we had no idea why (now we know why) and both boys had a few odd behavioural issues that we can now possibly explain- anyhow, but it is my daughter that i am most worried about- i just snuck in again tonight (the 3rd night since diagnosis) and saw a few dead ones around her- like 7 or 8- at least they were not moving- has anyone else had any such experience like mine??? i am reeeeeeeaaally having trouble coping with this- i have not told any of my friends or family and i cannot settle down to sleep- up until 1am feeling like i have things crawling all over me... anyhow thanks much guys-
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