And quite a pointless trip. Or it seems to me right now.
Long story short, I went in last night because I wasn't feeling Ellen move much and my midwife suggested I get checked out to ease any anxieties. So off I went. Immediately we could see on the monitors that she was fine, however my blood pressure was through the roof. Made some sense, considering the circumstances and surroundings. But they kept me to monitor me and it didn't go down much. Even after checking every fifteen minutes for a couple of hours. So, they took blood, and that was ok, but there was protein in my 24-hour urine test. All things considered, they decided to keep me overnight and monitor me every four hours to make sure baby was doing ok, then they told me they would likely induce today.
Sooo, spent a LONG night coming to terms with induction and hospital birth, getting all ready to meet my baby. She did great overnight, and my bp even came down a little, though it went back up this morning. So the on-call dr. (the docs from my regular ob practice were both off this weekend) walked in this morning and sent me home. Huh? Told me he would schedule an induction tomorrow but not today. Cervical check showed him that I am not dilated and he thought it would be a two day labor and may end up in a c-section. (my midwife pretty much said that was a load of hooey) Oh, and this was after I voiced concerns about the baby not doing well if we waited and he assured me that they "could have the baby out within 20 minutes if that happened." Uh, ok, but wouldn't it make more sense to get her out today when we KNOW she is ok and we can do a vag. birth where I am at least concious? Nope. Guess not. This is not an emergent situation, he tells me, and he will not do this today, though, again he would be willing to schedule me for tomorrow. Read: I am not interested in working on a Sunday, and I couldn't care less how much this effects your emotional or psychological state.
Meanwhile, with the bps where they were, coupled with the protein in my urine, my midwife no longer feels comfortable with a home birth. So basically all I got out of my night in the hospital was an assurance that I will be delivering in the hospital. Oh, and I got sent home on strict bedrest. Yeah, like that is going to send me into labor.
I feel like I have been yanked around again. I am just so ready to have this baby and have this stupid pregnancy over with. I never thought I would feel this way, given how hard I worked to get pg in the first place, but there it is. I don't want to spend the next week (or two?) lying here on my a** paying someone else to take care of my kid, I would much rather spend it bonding with my new baby and introducing her to her sister. I know I should feel glad to have dodged the induction bullet, and more than ready to wait until this baby is ready to be born, and, honestly, absent the bedrest, I would be more on board with that. But this just seems like a stupid waste of my precious time, especially since I can't really even use the time to do some fun things with Sofia. I can't even take her to school. And, all resting is going to do is prolong this pg. Not to mention my dh is far from being the best housekeeper, and I know the place is going to go downhill fast if I can't do even a little housework.
The one bright spot in all of this was that the nurses at the hospital could not have been nicer, so I really feel ok about delivering there. The nurse I had today said that most of the nurses on staff had done natural childbirth, and they were all very much on board with what I wanted for my birth. So I guess I can be thankful for that. Now I just need to convince my body to go into labor. Like now.
Sorry to vent so long, I am just so tired and beyond frustrated right now. I am supposed to see my regular doctor tomorrow, and I am really hoping that he decides it is better for me to have this baby sooner rather than later. He is one to consider the whole picture, including my emotional state, in making a decision, and I trust whatever decision he comes to. Thanks for listening everyone - again!
Long story short, I went in last night because I wasn't feeling Ellen move much and my midwife suggested I get checked out to ease any anxieties. So off I went. Immediately we could see on the monitors that she was fine, however my blood pressure was through the roof. Made some sense, considering the circumstances and surroundings. But they kept me to monitor me and it didn't go down much. Even after checking every fifteen minutes for a couple of hours. So, they took blood, and that was ok, but there was protein in my 24-hour urine test. All things considered, they decided to keep me overnight and monitor me every four hours to make sure baby was doing ok, then they told me they would likely induce today.
Sooo, spent a LONG night coming to terms with induction and hospital birth, getting all ready to meet my baby. She did great overnight, and my bp even came down a little, though it went back up this morning. So the on-call dr. (the docs from my regular ob practice were both off this weekend) walked in this morning and sent me home. Huh? Told me he would schedule an induction tomorrow but not today. Cervical check showed him that I am not dilated and he thought it would be a two day labor and may end up in a c-section. (my midwife pretty much said that was a load of hooey) Oh, and this was after I voiced concerns about the baby not doing well if we waited and he assured me that they "could have the baby out within 20 minutes if that happened." Uh, ok, but wouldn't it make more sense to get her out today when we KNOW she is ok and we can do a vag. birth where I am at least concious? Nope. Guess not. This is not an emergent situation, he tells me, and he will not do this today, though, again he would be willing to schedule me for tomorrow. Read: I am not interested in working on a Sunday, and I couldn't care less how much this effects your emotional or psychological state.
Meanwhile, with the bps where they were, coupled with the protein in my urine, my midwife no longer feels comfortable with a home birth. So basically all I got out of my night in the hospital was an assurance that I will be delivering in the hospital. Oh, and I got sent home on strict bedrest. Yeah, like that is going to send me into labor.
I feel like I have been yanked around again. I am just so ready to have this baby and have this stupid pregnancy over with. I never thought I would feel this way, given how hard I worked to get pg in the first place, but there it is. I don't want to spend the next week (or two?) lying here on my a** paying someone else to take care of my kid, I would much rather spend it bonding with my new baby and introducing her to her sister. I know I should feel glad to have dodged the induction bullet, and more than ready to wait until this baby is ready to be born, and, honestly, absent the bedrest, I would be more on board with that. But this just seems like a stupid waste of my precious time, especially since I can't really even use the time to do some fun things with Sofia. I can't even take her to school. And, all resting is going to do is prolong this pg. Not to mention my dh is far from being the best housekeeper, and I know the place is going to go downhill fast if I can't do even a little housework.
The one bright spot in all of this was that the nurses at the hospital could not have been nicer, so I really feel ok about delivering there. The nurse I had today said that most of the nurses on staff had done natural childbirth, and they were all very much on board with what I wanted for my birth. So I guess I can be thankful for that. Now I just need to convince my body to go into labor. Like now.
Sorry to vent so long, I am just so tired and beyond frustrated right now. I am supposed to see my regular doctor tomorrow, and I am really hoping that he decides it is better for me to have this baby sooner rather than later. He is one to consider the whole picture, including my emotional state, in making a decision, and I trust whatever decision he comes to. Thanks for listening everyone - again!
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