I've tried the Care Credit thing before... but I have horrific credit, and I have to be honest and say that there's no way i'd be able to pay it back in the time allotted... especially since I need soooo much work that I'd be about 1/3 of the way through it before bills started coming in.
I've looked into other things, but there's a huge dental crisis around here, and the waiting list even for people who need a ton of work is about two years long... I couldn't even figure out how to add myself to the list.
Our food stamps were cancelled this summer when the year-long review came up... and my case worker had been fired, but I wasn't assigned to a new one. Apparently I fell out of the system entirely, because I didn't get so much as a letter saying "Hey, your case worker has been fired, come get a new one."
: Of course, when the food stamps went, so did the kids' medicaid. Then mike got fired at the beginning of August-- the *day before* Bean and BooBah had their dental appointments. Not only did we get the (fantastic) news that BeanBean had *FIVE* cavities (that they could see- his mouth wasn't big enough for the littlest x-ray films) and would need to be sedated, but we had to pay out of pocket for the kids' check-ups. If they'd managed to do the x-rays, that would have been more but it was "only" $68, and of course we couldn't afford to get the kid's teeth fixed because that was another $800 and he doesn't have dental insurance anymore.
: I still haven't managed to re-apply for the food stamps; Something comes up each time I try.
So, we're getting by on unemployment and disability, WIC and the food bank. Except that I can't find the PIN to file the unemployment claim and I can't remember it... so I can't file the claim for the past two weeks. I'm so bloody scared and I can't even call mike and tell him, because he's at his parent's house and the cellphone is entirely missing. I wasn't really sure how things could get worse but they just did. It's been cold, and we ran out of oil back in August, I think... we've been putting kerosene into the tank to keep it from shutting off entirely (our hot water runs through the furnace, so we need to have it on all bloody year long) but now it's cold and I just have to be thankful that the kids are like their father and unbelievably warm blooded. We need to move, and he needs to get a job but... I have no idea what's going to happen. I feel like I'm moving through molasses and I just can't stand anything. I'll probably ask for drugs next time I see the doctor. I hate what they do to me, but... I'm totally not functional and I ran out of flax seed oil and florivital ages ago and of course we can't get more any time soon.
I just wanted to declutter and stuff... you know get rid of baby clothing because this is the last one, and clear my head and such. But the whole world started to fall to pieces when I started getting rid of things, and I still feel the need to do it and I still feel like I'm at a loss. I guess I should be glad that I have mike around, but I kind of don't want to be with him. We'll stay in the same house and raise the kids together, we're still friends and we get along well, but there's just nothing between us. I'm glad he's not a total a******, though... that would make things a lot worse, I guess.
I have to go look for that PIN again and pray i find it in the next 15 minutes, because if I don't we're kind of completely screwed on paying the electric bill...