I just need to vent a bit, I think. Yesterday I had my 2nd OB visit but this was the first time I met my doctor. My first visit I just saw a nurse practitioner who asked a lot of questions I had already answered on the forms I had filled out and tried to get me signed up for a formula club which I had declined. Yesterday my OB sees me. She's doing an internal exam and pap smear or whatever but it's a bit awkward because all my kids are with me. (husband's schedule changed last minute.. ugh) She was gentle, but afterwards, while my legs are still up and I'm exposed she starts telling me that I should do the gestational diabetes test which I had told the nurse practitioner previously that I'd rather not do. I start explaining my reasoning behind not wanting to do it and she got a bit aggressive, telling me that I am putting my baby at risk and that she needs to do it. I tell her she is putting me in an awkward position by talking to me about this while I am half naked so she tells me to get dressed and she will be right back to talk. Okay... over half an hour later she comes back, is in a rush, and tells me we can talk about it the next visit since they don't do it until next month or something anyways. I felt like she was punishing me by taking so long since I didn't agree with her. Obviously this is just going to be an argument after argument if I continue to see her. The kids were really good considering we were there for such a long time. I don't want to go back. I want to have a homebirth. My husband is leaving for Iraq next month and won't be back for the birth. I just don't want to do everything alone but looks like if I want to do things the way I'd like I'm going to have to. I think I mostly feel violated by the way she approached that topic, while I was in a very vulnerable position. I'm feeling a bit lonely about the whole thing. I'm excited about this baby but to my family it's almost a non-issue since it's my fourth. Well, I feel a bit better venting, I guess I just needed to get it out. Thanks everyone.
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10/31/07 at 10:16am