Happy Birthday Month!!!
I'm excited and sad all at the same time. Jacob's party is November 10th. I have gone all out once again. I love planning and preparing parties. His birthday is November 18th. I CAN"T believe my baby is turning 2.
: I am shocked at how fast time is flying and how much he is growing and learning.
Here's the long update on us right now...
We are downsizing in a huge way in our apartment and our lives.
We are selling/getting rid of our TV, most of our furniture and a ton of stuff we just don't need or want anymore. We are doing this mainly because we are moving in June and don't want to lug a bunch of junk across the country *well across a few states* We have started a list of places for Adam to put in applications and what state(s) we are most interested in. We have it narrowed down to two pretty neat looking areas both in Colorado right now. But the Seattle area and Flagstaff aren't completely ruled out yet.
We are going down to one income in January which scares the crap out of me because 3 months later I go on maternity leave and we are going down to my income for about six months which is not a fun concept considering it's going to be cut by 1/3 while I am out. Adam starts his field work for teaching in January and we decided it would be better for him not to get a second job while he is doing that. The good news on that though, is that we will stay a one-income family after that with this my last year teaching in a public/paid setting.
We have decided I'll be homeschooling our kids *yay* I've always felt that was the reason I have a teaching credential to begin with but now with Adam working in the public school system he is starting to seriously agree with me. I will be able to do a better job teaching our kids than the school system...and I'll LOVE it!! We are talking about spacing the next child 5 years after Leah...but we will just have to see how it goes. It is so hard for me to be nursing Jacob and pregnant with Leah and for me weaning is not an option.
Jacob is doing amazingly. He's growing by leaps and bounds! His daycare lady loves the crap out of him and dotes on him so much. He's so polite it's uncanny. Always saying please, thank you and excuse me! His newest thing, which just melts my heart, is "Mama, doing???" He will run up to me and say "mama? Doing?!?!" and I will answer him "I'm ______" doing dishes, folding laundry, talking to dadi, making dinner.....whatever it is. He will then run away again, only to be back 30 seconds later to ask again. When I do answer him he gets the most mischievious grin on his face before he runs away. It's adorable!!!
His newest obsession, well besides ANYTHING outside, is Blue's Clues. He runs around yelling "a clue, a clue" and tells us EVERYTHING is "right there" while pointing to it.
He adores babies and always informs me when he hears someone crying. I can only imagine what the first few weeks will be like with him telling me every time Leah cries.
He's a mama's boy to the extreme!!! He has started pushing Adam away at night when he gets it in his mind that he only wants mama...and now...thank you very much. I can tell it hurts Adam...but we keep talking about how it's not something to take personally...he knows that Jacob loves him....it's just hard for him to see it right now.
I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas and a time to relax and be home as a famliy. We are travelling for Thanksgiving...but I'm hoping it will still be relaxing. Christmas we are staying home...just our family and I am so excited about it. I've started a Christmas Traditions book I'm writing for our family that I hope to pass down...I may have to make more than one copy that will have stories and pictures of our family traditions for the holiday season.
Besides all that I'm pregnant and hormonal. I am counting down the days till I hit 29 weeks. I turned 29 weeks exactly when my water broke with Jacob and I spent 5 weeks on hospitalized bedrest scared to death every day that I would lose him. I vividly remember the meltdowns I had at least once a week because I wasn't allowed to get out of bed for ANYTHING without a doctor's order. I had to have doctor's orders for a shower (once a week if I was lucky), to use the bathroom (and that not until the second week I was there), to go outside (twice in the 5 weeks for a total of about an hour) it was horrible. Jacob was then born at 34 weeks and spent a week in the NICU. I don't want to do that again. Praying that Leah develops fully inside and that my body functions correctly to keep her there....I want to be 40 weeks and miserably pregnant...I'd take that anyday over the anguish of being discharged from the hospital after being stuck there for 5 weeks and having to leave my son there. The pregnant and hormonal part is hard on Adam too...he is an amazing husband and has picked up the slack where I just can't do it anymore soooo well! I
AND...today I was violated in a way that I still can't shake...Ugh. I hate middle school kids sometimes...
I had a student come into class and refuse to sit down. He then undoes his belt and unzips his pants. I asked him to sit down. He responded rudely and defiantly "I'm fixing my pants." I repeated my request for him to sit down. He responded "Why you looking?!?! You like this or something?!" I then changed my request for him to leave the classroom. He looked at me and said "F*ck you!" and walked out.
I wrote the referral. We are required before we can actually send a referral to the office to contact the parents. So I called home. No answer. I called dad at work. The secretary answered. "Is this an emergency. We don't allow personal calls." I told her it was up to her whether she connected me through or not and that his son was doing/saying inappropriate things at school. She transferred me through. I spoke to the dad's supervisor who was unable to get the dad on the phone. I was hoping the office would accept that so I (thank goodness I had a teacher's aide this period) took the student up to the office....As we walked in the secretary said the dad was on the phone for me. I spoke to him. His answer...."What do you want me to do about it!??!" Seriously?!?
I am having a very difficult time seeing these urchins as people...I know they need a patient, understanding adult in their lives...but I sure as anything don't feel equipped to be that for them.
I feel gross and nasty...that a child would speak to me that way. Ewww. Ugh. I want to go home.
*hugs* to all the mama's out there and Happy Birthday Month to our gorgeous kiddos!!