Is this it?

[Kontessa]

My day:

9:30am --Kids day care.

10:00-12:30 Walking mall

1pm Midewife. First midwife checks me and swears I am at 8cm! : Second midwife said she could understand why she would think that but really it is only 3. Bloody though, drippy bloody.

2:12 on way home I notice contractions coming every 3 minutes, again. Go to walmart to last minute shop. They are getting stronger, call doula.

3:30 Contractions stronger but me laughing through them as I always do. Labor does not hurt for me till transition.

Since then, contractions, calling midwife, they keep calling and seem to think it will go away. I do not agree. Ouchy, but not too bad.

So we wait.....

[AKmomof2+1inNov]

yeah!! Sounds good to me...I'll go light my candle for you-have a happy healthy delivery!!

[isosmom]

Sounds like it to me. Keep us posted.

[scheelimama]

Oh, how exciting! Keep us updated. If you need to call me, feel free to. I'm going to bed in a min. though. Can't wait to hear of your new little one in the morning!

ETA: You certainly can call me during the night. Hope that didn't sound wrong.

[De-lovely]

WOOHOOO! Peaceful labor vibes mama!! I will light my candle now!

[GooeyRN]

Good luck!

[*GreenMama*]

Hoping this is it for you! GL mama!

[marisa]

Good luck, hope this is it for you! Can't wait to get an update!

[Kontessa]

I think I need to cry. Midwives came and told me nothing had changed in 6 hours except baby is much lower, I am about 4 and lots of plug coming out, dark blood and bright blood and PAIN. Only not much has changed. I about cried there in front of everyone. OUCH DAMN IT. If this is not labor and I feel pain I would rate as 8, I want an Epi. So everyone went home to delight as it felt too busy, but here I am alone.....

and I can do this alone. I am going to have such a hard time now calling anyone now and I so miss hubby. Crying now. Everything seems so hard without him. I just want stop crying and get some sleep but I hurt too much and too often.

too much

I can do this because I have too and it will not last forever, but how long can it last?

[isosmom]

Oh, hon, I so feel for you. I don't know how you are doing this without a partner. I can't even imagine. Stay strong, as you said, it won't last forever, and it sounds like it won't last too much longer. Keep us posted and lean on us for support.

[AKmomof2+1inNov]

Oh hugs! I can't imagine doing it alone. It does sound like this is it and I bet it starts moving really fast soon and your midwifes will be back before morning.

[StacieM]

(((((HUGS)))))

I'm so sorry. I hope your baby is here soon.

[lisarussell]

Originally Posted by Kontessa

I think I need to cry. Midwives came and told me nothing had changed in 6 hours except baby is much lower, I am about 4 and lots of plug coming out, dark blood and bright blood and PAIN. Only not much has changed. I about cried there in front of everyone. OUCH DAMN IT. If this is not labor and I feel pain I would rate as 8, I want an Epi. So everyone went home to delight as it felt too busy, but here I am alone.....
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I can do this because I have too and it will not last forever, but how long can it last?

Oh this happened with my 2nd one. And do you know what, I was right and I'll bet you are, too. They told me I wasn't in labor, even though I knew I had been for 2 days. Her exact words were "go home and relax, we'll see you at your prenatal appt next week. You're not dilated, you're not effaced, and you haven't had any contractions for the past hour (It was true, they stopped the minute they put the EFM on.)

Well- so I went home feeling all stupid, like I was such a wimp and such a dummy and wouldn't you know it, she was born that night in the car because I kept denying my labor to myself. After all, they told me it wasn't happening. She was born after 2 hours of hard labor (I figured I was just poopy and stupid until I felt her coming down)

YOU know what's going on. You are stronger than you know. YOU have all you need to bring this baby in the world. They can measure, test, and check whatever they want. YOU know the time is coming. All is well.

[wwisdomskr]

Thinking of you, Kimmy.

[DeChRi]

Thoughts your way. I can't imagine. Sending you lots of postive birthing vibes. Please keep us updated.

[scheelimama]

I'm so sorry Kimmy. That's one of my fears, I've played out similar situations so many times in my mind. I can't imagine how alone you must feel right now. Call me anytime you need or want to, I mean it. I hope you have a wiggly little baby in your arms now.

[Valerieg]

This is it...I'd be surprised if you don't have a baby yet! If contractions are moving the baby down and causing you to dilate then they are real. You may just be moving slowly.

If you haven't had the baby yet...try to relax. You're doing an excellent job.

[ComfyCozy]

I'm sorry for the rough start, Kimmy. Much love and gentle labor wishes coming your way.

[marisa]

I'm so sorry!

Are they concerned at all about the bleeding?

[mittendrin]

HUGS, I so wish some of us were near you to come over and rub your feet and help you thru this.
It's ok to feel really sad and depressed now, your hormones are raging since you are so close to delivery. You are such a strong person to even think about doing all this w/o your husband. is there anything that might distract you a bit? Funny movie, baking a cake, something NOT pregnancy or baby related? Sounds like your body is working hard but your mind needs a break so badly!