Last night was a mess. I found I was in so much pain after the midwives checked me and my heart just hurt too much from hearing the early labor that day had done nothing it seems but drain me. I welcomed the darkness, put hypnobabies on, and tried not to move. It was all I could do but cry and wish for sleep. Not sure when that happened and I kept getting woken up with contractions and this fear of moving and hurting worse. Nothing like any other labor and starting to wonder just what I can handle. A lot of all my emotion had to do with my Hubby just not being here, He is my rock and a big part of my confidence.
All I want to do is be in bed today. I do not think I can handle more pain and just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Baby is moving and that is enough. Mentally not ok. Always said that the pain could not last forever but then I never had more then a 6 hour labor and now I am thinking it could last longer I can. I simply just do not want to think about baby coming any time soon. Just want quiet,
Some how whats adds to it all is knowing I did not get any writing in yesterday and have to now make it up and I am still finding it hard to focus, my head hurts, and I still can not find the drive to eat. I do not think I have ever felt this mentally weak in all my life. Could be worse I know, but can not connect with that thought.
All I want to do is be in bed today. I do not think I can handle more pain and just thinking about it makes me want to cry. Baby is moving and that is enough. Mentally not ok. Always said that the pain could not last forever but then I never had more then a 6 hour labor and now I am thinking it could last longer I can. I simply just do not want to think about baby coming any time soon. Just want quiet,
Some how whats adds to it all is knowing I did not get any writing in yesterday and have to now make it up and I am still finding it hard to focus, my head hurts, and I still can not find the drive to eat. I do not think I have ever felt this mentally weak in all my life. Could be worse I know, but can not connect with that thought.
I can feel your pain Kimmy. Please call me if you feel the need to talk to someone who would understand. Do you have someone to take the kids for the day so you can just rest and cry and write? I hope today is better for you. And I hope that baby comes quickly and easily.
I'm sorry it hurts! I hope your baby comes soon so you can get this over with! Let us know!
