Feeling droopy and apprehensive and glum

[Curlita]

I'm sure its' normal and hormonal and all that stuff, but.... I'm feeling really glum and droopy and fretful. Tomorrow is my last day of work and after that I can rest and relax and enjoy a little down time. But I feel so anxious and apprehensive.

Last night I woke up to pee and sat up, feeling a little dizzy. I couldn't get my balance on my way to the bathroom. Some of you might remember the ear thing I've got going on -- diminished hearing. The docs said basically it's like Meniere's disease without the balance issues. So as I staggered to the bathroom I though, oh crap, now I've lost my balance. And I descended into a full-blown panic attack. I haven't had a panic attack in over a year and take major amounts of Zoloft to prevent them. I got back to bed and woke up my husband, who talked me down. By the time I woke up the next time to pee, I felt okay. But it really freaked me out to have a panic attack.... the worst part is feeling like I want to get out of my skin and escape and not being able to.

So all day today I just felt sort of blah and filled with dread. I'm finally getting to the end of work and pregnancy... how come I'm not happy and excited?

[StacieM]

Erica-the same thing happened to me about a week ago. I was also feeling very blah and also had a day when I was wondering why I was suddenly not so excited to be getting so close...I was wondering why, this whole time, the thought of holding MY newborn brought tears to my eyes and one that day, I just felt so....disconnected...like it wasn't even really happening to me and I didn't even have any feelings about it.

I think for me it's just that I know I have one MAJOR thing I need to get done before baby gets here (get my house moved out of)....once that's done, I think I'll be able to just focus on baby for the last few days. We plan on getting everything done this weekend, so I'm hoping I'm more "ready" starting on Monday.

[wwisdomskr]

[DeChRi]

Ditto. I get the same thing, and it's followed by the emotional yuck the next day. When I came off meds in this pregnancy I had to kind of battle the backlash and still get blindsided. I was up at 3am to pee trying to take deep breaths and wondering about various work things and it spiraled.

No advice, just sympathy.

[monocyte]

Ugh, Meneire's.

I had/have it. Got it suddenly after a mc, and thought I was seriously going crazy!!!

But, hon, I feel your pain. Panic attacks and everything. Hosp a few times for it, thought I needed to be put away.

more later, ds *needs* to go to bed.

[GinaRae]

I have those dizzy spells once in a while too. As I have told you, I have some vertigo and have had for 9 years, but also the other signs and symptoms of Menieres come and go as well as fibro symptoms. It stinks, but it does only happen rarely (the dizzy spells) and usually those are like yours, in the middle of the night.

[chrysalis]

i get my panic attacks when i'm very upset by someone (usually a man...) i'm in a relationship with...usually high conflict brings mine on...i used to hyperventilate big time...in my 20's... now i'm in my late 30's and i get depressed real easily...i go thru days when i'm excited to hold my son, and then other moments i'm like what the heck did i go and get pg again for when i really just wanted my megh? then i feel guilt. and overwhelm. last night i was snuggling w/ megh in bed and the thought of it not being just meghy and i anymore started to make me feel very sad...: and then fears of raising a sweet boy who will turn into a sweet caring confident man... i definitely do this back and forth thing re. pg and being a mom again and so forth. when i first was pg i went thru this a LOT. just not very excited about being pg again and regretting getting pg and how could this be happening to me.........etc. and even considering putting baby up for adoption. i'm surprised there isn't more out there for prenatal depression cuz i truly believe it occurs. i'm much more apathetic/detached re. this pg/baby then w/ my megh...

hang in there mama-u r not alone.

[TulikaEma]

[Dee-Groovy]

You're going through a lot of life changes at once, so I think it's normal to have a range of emotions right now. Sorry you had a rough night. Hopefully you'll feel better when you can let go of your work responsibilities and focus on more positive things. FWIW I often creep along the walls to the bathroom during the night b/c I can't balance very well. A full bladder gives me wicked BH and I can barely stand up straight.

[Curlita]

Thanks for all the reassurance, ladies... I'm amazed at how many people have Meniere's... and panic/anxiety problems... one of the reasons that I am so open about my experience with anxiety is that a friend of mine at work was very open about it with me, and that led me to seeking treatment.

Anyway, no more panic and feeling a bit better now that work is over.

Stacie, I hope your move goes well this weekend.

s back to all of you.

[GinaRae]

A friend's husband was very open with me once and I almost killed him right there.

We went to an NBA game with him and my car died in the parking lot and as the stadium and lot emptied I was freaked out. We finally got a jump and I freaked the whole way home (maybe an hour??) about being stuck on the side of the highway in the dark.

He was sitting in the back and realized I was having a pretty big anxiety attack so he decided to fill me in on how he had panic attacks and anxiety and how he got help, etc. This was after he had just filled us with all this advice about us not needing a van (says the dad of 1 child) and all kinds of other goodies.

I said, "Does this advice come with a noose? Just kill me already."

Good luck, hon!