Feeling like a mess today--anniversary coming up

[joyofgaia]

In a few days it will be the 2nd anniversary of my mom's passing. Two months before her, my dad passed away. And four months before that, my brother. I buried them all together Thanksgiving week.

Now that the anniversary is upon me, I feel like I can't cope. It seems even worse than last year. I feel depressed, lost, angry, like I'm falling apart. I have no friends IRL to turn to, only ones online. I wish I just had someone to come over and talk and have coffee, take me out to get my hair done, anything. I am dreading spending the day alone with my almost-3-year-old tomorrow. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

Not really looking for advice on how to cope, just wanted to vent :

[bellabear]

sorry, mama.

[orangefoot]

I'll be thinking of you

[rachelle-a-tron]

Sending you peace & strength.

[EricaE]

[RedOakMomma]

It helps me to do something where I can just see the happiness of others. Can you take your almost 3yo somewhere, and enjoy that one-on-one time? Maybe go out for coffee together, and splurge on a silly little cupcake or doughnut? Or go to a museum, or some place where you can both run around and be silly?

I don't know if that would work for you, but I wanted to suggest it since it seems to be helping with me. I wish you the best, and I hope when the anniversary passes you can breathe a deep breath of relief. The anniversary of my mom's death (this year was the third anniversary) was harder at the second year, too. The third year was a lot better.

[baileyandmikey]

(hugs)